That's right, today was down-right dull. I did, however, get the front porch painted. Now, all there is left to do is fix the steps & decorate it. The front of our house is so plain. There is nothing on our front porch except a gray rug & 2 planters. So, if any of you have any good ideas on some inexpensive ways to decorate or perk up a small porch, let me know! I also got my sunflower garden planted today. I'm also thinking about doing a water garden..I saw it on Martha Stewart today..haha. I don't know why I watch her show, I absolutely cannot stand the woman, but I must admit, she's good at what she does.
In other areas of my life, Ry wants a new truck. It makes me feel bad, he works his ass off, I just want him to be able to have what he wants. But, first I need to find a job. The lady didn't call today..I'm really upset..I'd really like to have that job. CASA which was another good opportunity blew up in flames as well. They already hired someone by the time I had got there with my resume on Monday.
I also got to see my nieces again today. I'm going to miss them so much when they head back to Florida. I feel like I don't have near the same relationship that I had with them when they lived up here. It breaks my heart. But, my sister chose that life...so if it makes her happy, it does me as well. I feel the same about my nephew, Xavier. I was going to bring him up with me, but he's only 2 and he's very attached to his mom. 3 weeks is a long time to be away from a parent. This will give him time to be mommy's one and only. It's driving her crazy to be without her kids..haha..but I'm lovin' every minute of it. I love those girls! Back to X...he didn't even know who I was when I went to pick up the girls. It made my hear ache..I almost shed a few tears...for real. I can't even explain how it feels to love someone so much, and them not know who the hell you are. I feel the same when I call to talk to Mikayla & Hayley..there is always that awkward silence...like umm..what do I say now? I know they love me, and they know I love them, it's just so hard to relate, I have no clue what's going on in their lives down there. But, while they are up here, I'm taking full advantage.
I'm trying to fix up the house a little bit. Ugh. The more days that past by, the more I hate my house. It's way to close to the road, it's wayyy too small, it sits at a weird angle on our lot..etc.etc. I know it's only our first house but still, we settled! I'm so pissed at myself for settling. When I think of my house, I think..shit. haha. No for real. I don't even care if no one comes to our house, they'd probably be mortified. I'm trying my best to make it our own though...that's the thing though! I'd rather put money into our house than anything else! It's ok though because I quite like doing little things around the house. It always comes back to bite me in the ass though, like today while painting the porch..my hands hurt SO bad. I was fighting tears. Oh yeah, I have nerve damage from diabetes. It sucks. But I make it alright. I never feel different until I go to do something "normal" and can't succeed.
Oh yeah! Speaking of diabetes, my toe is infected. Ugh. It hurts extremely bad. I'm on antibiotics though. I'm hoping everything will be ok. I'd hate to only have 9 toes, I already fall a lot, I'd hate to see what I'd be like with one less toe to balance on. haha. I cut my toe nail "wrong" and it got infected. Isn't that some crazy stuff? Yeah. I know. Diabetes sucks, but I'd rather it be me than you any day.
Well, I'm not sure what's in store for tomorrow..
We'll see!
Good night all!
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