FOUL MOOD!

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. That's for sure!!! Plus, to top it off, the new puppy, Floyd totally ruined my glasses today. He chewed them up. Sooooo...now I gotta buy some new ones, and those I just got like last summer. So, needless to say I'm pissed off.
I've been hearing some shit. Yes, I do again talk to my friend Whitney. Yes, we've been through some shit together. Yes, we are two totally different people. But, the thing YOU don't understand is that we've been friends since before we can even remember. Our dad's were friends. So, that means we know each other more than anyone else knows us. And I truly believe that. No one knows me like she does, and no one knows her like I do. Atleast, when it comes to friends. And we've went our seperate ways for a while. And NO I didn't like what she was doing with her life, and that's partly the reason we seperated. BUT!!!! We're getting close again. And I think I misjudged her for real. So, I'm sorry for that. But, I won't apologize for being friends with anyone. Especially not her. I love that chick. We have a bond no one can break, not even us, I mean we've tried. It doesn't work. So, we are totally different, and yet we are a lot the same. So, let me put it out there---she's one of my best friends, and always will be.
I have started drawing. I'm not good yet, but I'm better than some I've seen. So, I'm sticking with it. I enjoy it a lot, a lot more than I thought I would. Mostly I like to draw still life! My mom has hung my 1st real drawing up in her office. haha. Go figure right? It's a vase with a flower, a bowl, and an apple. To be honest my flower is out of proportion with my vase, and my apple is out of proportion with my bowl. But, whatever, I'm just a beginner. Tonight I am going to get new pencils and a new sketch book. Before you know it you will not only see my writing in magazines, and my books, but you'll also have my artwork hanging in your home. Well, only if I like you enough for that. hahah. This spring break I am having 3 photo shoots. One with my friend Whitney, doing some very modern shots. I'm excited for that. One with my mom--we are recreating her as Audrey Hepburn. And immulating some her most famous shots. And of course my rugged Cowboy daddy! I'm excited. I'm going to try to put together a portfolio. There is a photography studio opening in Williamsburg soon, my hope is to get a part time job there. Even if I don't get paid. I just want some exposure. So this portfolio will be shown to this particular photographer just to show her that I am really into this and would love an opportunity, if she'd give it. Wish me luck on that!
I dyed my hair purple last night. I got my first reaction today at Arbys. I guess I'm too pretty to have purple hair? Haha. How funny is that! Ya know because this purple hair changed my face, and my personality and all the stuff that makes you pretty. Hah, it amazes me how petty people are.
Ok, I'm done ranting about all of this, it's just making me even more pissy. I'm off to work on my writer's blog. If you haven't checked it out, do it!

http://maryelizabethswords.blogspot.com

Peace && Love.

Kidneys Hurt. Yet Again.

Yep, they do. And this one came on just as fast as the other ones....sucks so bad. They just started hurting today, and I'm already pissing blood. Nice, eh? What is funny 2 me is that the drs. have NO idea why kidney infections come so hard & fast on me. So they just give me stuff to make it stop hurting, which isn't really helping because I know it'll be back in 2-4 weeks. But, it's whatever. We were supposed to go out tonight, and I was freakin' stoked...even bought a cute new outfit..then the kidneys had to take a down fall and so did our plans. But, I'll wait til next weekend, no reason 2 go & get drunk, just to end up in the hospital. I'll wait til my kidneys are on the up-n-up again. But, I must say I'm pretty dissapointed. I'm sure all who were going with us were. So, I'm sorry to them. And they don't know me, or how my kidneys work, so they probably thought I was lieing, but I'm really not. Ask around...my kidneys blow!
I have decided to go to Wilmington College for communication arts. I'm actually really excited about it. I've been thinking about it for a couple months now, I looked at my curriculum...and fell in love. I HAVE to take lots of photography, writing, and webdesign classes. HAVE TO!!! So, that put a big big smile on my face. Speaking of photography, my dad bought me studio lights today. Ya know the big ones with the silver unbrellas. I swear, he is like my biggest fan. He's always pushing for me. I love that about him. I can't wait to start the stories about him for my autobiography. I'm actually getting really excited about it. I'm going to make everyone in my family a copy of it for xmas. I won't tell you the layout, or the stories, but I'm stoookeeddd!!! =)
My husband and I are absolutely wonderful. He's decided to rock a go-tee. I hate facial hair. It absolutely disgusts me. But, I know he'll shave it off eventually...and I can't really say much, I mean he does let me do whatever I want. On Monday I'm dying my hair purple! Woot woot. So. I'm also happy about that.
About the Suicide Girls thing...I've found someone to do my hair & makeup. ANNDD I'm hiring a professional photographer to do my shots to submit. Unless something unexpected deters me, I am going through with this. I'm so happy, let's pray I get it. I mean...my dream...to be a pinup girl! Even if just once in my life. =) You have no idea...
Anyways, I'm off here for now! I love you all! Peace Bitches.

--Mrs. Jordan

Let Me Introduce Myself...

My name is now, Mary Elizabeth Jordan. Ew..still not used to it, still hate it. haha. Mrs. Jordan. Yeah, it's still not good enough. The big day is OVER. I'm kinda upset. I spent months and months planning, and then in a flash, it was gone. And for some reason I don't remember it that well. It was like a whirlwind. Seriously! I only had one tiny break down during my wedding day, which I thought was good! And it wasn't anything bad, just people wanting a piece of me, and I just wanted to have a minute by myself.
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!

----MRS. JORDAN----