Let Me Introduce Myself...

My name is now, Mary Elizabeth Jordan. Ew..still not used to it, still hate it. haha. Mrs. Jordan. Yeah, it's still not good enough. The big day is OVER. I'm kinda upset. I spent months and months planning, and then in a flash, it was gone. And for some reason I don't remember it that well. It was like a whirlwind. Seriously! I only had one tiny break down during my wedding day, which I thought was good! And it wasn't anything bad, just people wanting a piece of me, and I just wanted to have a minute by myself.
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!

----MRS. JORDAN----