UPDATE.

Let's see, why haven't I been on here? I'm really not sure. I've been in such a weird place in my life, and for once I didn't feel like writing about it. I tried just do the whole mental thing, and deal with it. That's got me NO WHERE. And, yet I still don't feel like writing about it, or talking about it. My life isn't bad, and I shouldn't complain as much as I do. So I won't.

Last time I was on here, I had the week from hell. My mom and sister I suppose you could say "made up". But, there is still tons of tension in my family. There's tons of tension in my life right now, and I wish it would just all go away!! My family is my everything, and now I feel like I have to walk on egg shells. My sister doesn't really speak to me any more. She doesn't speak to any of us any more. She was just on a weekend trip up here, and I didn't get to see her. I got to see her kids, which was great! But, not her. Idk what to do about that. It really wears on my heart though.

No job, and I think my husband is very irritated at the fact. I hurt so much anymore. THat's another part of my disoriented mind. OMG, I can't explain the pain. I wouldn't even know where to begin.But, I do have an interview on Monday at Portrait Avenue. If I get this job, I'll keep it, because I have to, no matter what the cost. No matter what I have to deal with. No matter what, I promise myself, because I have responsibilites that are above and beyond my selfishness.

So, Idk what else to write. Because I dont' want to complain any more, and sit here in self pity. So I'm off.

Peace out.