I never see ONE doctor. I see a team. I have a team in every situation. It makes me feel... complicated. I guess that's the word I'm looking for. I'm thankful for my teams, but at the same time I'm like am I really THAT bad off? It's kind of like a kick in the groin yet, a helpful hand. It's just weird. Any way, let's talk about my newest team I've met and come to know...
My anesthesia consultation was on Friday at 11:00 A.M. This appointment was supposed to take about 15-30 minutes. HAH. I went in, signed in. Everyone kept asking me if I was there to have my baby, or if I was in labor. I said I sure hope not! ;) Anyway, I saw the first Dr, he took a bunch of info from me. He also gave me a neurological exam. Why? I do not know, but apparently it showed things he needed to talk to other doctors about. To make a long story short, I saw the whole team of UC's OB/Delivery anesthesiologist. 5 in total. They were all "concerned", between the brain malformation and the diabetes they said. One said even positioning me on the table would be hard. So, they all were on the same page about how exactly to go about the c-section. Remember, I can't have a spinal block, epidural, and I cannot labor. They all said general anesthesia. Even though 5 of them had the same plan, I had to wait for the chair board doctor (some fancy title) basically, she over sees all the anesthesiologists! I had to wait to talk to her personally. She came straight from the OR to see me. So then I had to wait, and talk with her for forever. She said the same thing! General anesthesia! She gave me her personal cell phone number in case I have any questions, fears, or concerns. That was reassuring, but still a bad situation.
The hardest part about general anesthesia is that Ryan cannot be in the OR. The surgery will take an hour. I will go in clear-headed. I will not have any drugs or anything down to the point where everyone in the room checks off with "I'm ready", and the doctor is standing over me with the scalpel. Then I'll be "put out". She said it will be a scary situation because I'll feel like everyone is ready but me. I appreciate the warning of it though. I think that will really help! Anyway, I just came to terms with having a C-section, now I have to have this put on top of it. The worst part is that Ryan is so upset about it. He's sad he won't be in the room, see him, cut his cord, etc. He won't see the birth of his only child. It breaks my heart. He kept saying "I'll be ok, if it's better for both of you then I'll be ok." But, that changed when I called him and told him that, that was the plan and it's set in stone, he changed his mind. He just keeps talking about it. I feel so bad. If both of us are ok after surgery, he can come with us in recovery. If not, then he can't, he has to wait. My family other than Ryan has to wait until I'm out of recovery and back in my room. That could take 2 hours +. I really don't want a lot of people there. I'd prefer just Ryan. He doesn't get to be in the room and I won't even be awake, so I want him and I to have as much alone time with OUR son as possible. But, I know that isn't going to happen. I know there will be tons of family there. I'm not sure how to tell them no, so I guess I'll just deal with it.
My appointment yesterday went excellent. All the doctors said I was doing beautifully. I do not have Pre-E. I have the diagnosis of "gestational hypertension". I'll be followed closely on that. My blood sugars are great. Max's biophysical profile went great! Our little man is perfect! As of now my doctors have no worries that we will make it to our due date of April 1st. I'm optimistic that we will too. I'm doing everything I can to insure that he stays put! It was one of the best appointments I've had this entire pregnancy. One other good note, is that surprisingly my kidneys are better now than they ever have been. No one is sure how or why this happened, but aren't we thankful! I'm so happy!
That's all the medical junk I have for you!
Until Next Time...
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