Let's See...

I start Paul Mitchell school on Monday. I'm NERVOUS!! I'm still needing black clothes. It's HARD to find pants that fit me. My waist is 27 inches, and my butt is 41 inches around. You see my problem here? lol. If they fit my big ol bum, they are too big on my waist and way too long. Eh, oh well, I shouldn't complain anymore. It's just annoying. That's why I love dresses! They don't make me feel deformed! I can't wait til warm weather so I can rock the dresses again!
Last night Ryan came home from work early. Around 4. That was nice. We went to Kenwood mall to turn in all my applications. The manager at Teavana (a store of nothing but tea!) said she would call me in a week. I'm stoked. I love that place! The manager at Forever 21 said she would call me too. I'd rather work at Teavana though honestly. lol. I'm also applying to the magazing "Natural Living". I'd like a job there. I love to read the mag, so I'm sure working for it would just as cool.

Blood sugars still good. I'm proud. My husband is PROUD! Woo hoo. It ws 77 this morning! And I still feel very good.

Until Next Time...

SUCK IT!!!

I will do what I want. When I want. I have a mother. I don't need ANY more. Worry about YOU, and I'll worry about ME!!! That goes to all my haters who try to bring me down. You just give me that much more fuel to add to my fire.
NKU has taken $5,000 of my financial aid money when I cancelled everything for this semester!!! So now I'm gonna have to pay that back and FOR NOTHING. I got nothing from it!! I'm furious!!! WTF?! Can they even legally do that? I cancelled my disbursements. They said I didn't. I have e-mails. I don't have call logs though. I wish I could get those. I even called my lenders and canceled through them. How in the hell did this happen!? I'm livid.

It feels like I take 10 steps forward to take 6 leaps backward!! Ugh. Life sucks. But, I'm rolling with it's punches. I hope I can get this straightened out with NKU. Or they can hand me 5K and I'll buy something pretty with it!! If I'm going to pay it back, I want to use it!

Oh well. Enough of the bad. Good news: I start Paul Mitchell on Monday. Gotta be there @ 8:45 am! I am really nervous. I know I'm good at academia, but this is something totally different. I'm also glad to see that it is pissing some people off. I mean, seriously? They get mad over what I do in MY life? C'mon! Grow a pair! The funny thing is I'll be happier than them one day, hell I already am. Ugh. People make me sick. I'm very excited and VERY nervous for Monday. I'll update about it right away! =)

Blood sugars are still awesome. Ryan and I have decided that after a full month of control, I am going to temp and chart. I'm hoping for the best, preparing for the worst with that situation. I feel awesome. Today I kinda hurt all over, but still, nothing to complain about.

Until Next Time...

JOB HUNTING!!

Sucks. Sucks. SUCKS. Melinda and I went to Kenwood Mall today for HOURS. I got a folder full of apps to fill out and take back on Thursday after my closing at school. I want to go to Tri County and do the same sometime this week. The more I put in the better the chances right? Pray for me. I need monies. lol.

Diabetes Progress Report: Other than my high of 300 something again this morning, my blood sugars have stayed under 130 today. YAY!

That's all I have. Short & sweet update.
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Great, But Sad Weekend.

Jesse and Alexis Neal. Our dear, dear friends. Jesse is a Corporal in the United States Marine Corps. He leaves today to head to California for training until April. He will be back for one week, then to Afghanistan he goes! We spent the entire day with them yesterday. Leaving our house a little after noon, and getting home after 10pm. Saying goodbye to Jesse was the hardest thing ever! The man is 6'7'' so I, at 5'2'' jump to give him a hug! lol. He picked me up and danced-walked with me! =( It was so sad. I can't imagine when he leaves for his 8 month tour. Ryan and I plan to write him at least twice a week. He has no family, except for Alexis. So now that Jesse-Mitten as we call him, is gone, now I have Alexis to deal with. That wasn't a complaint by any means! I just don't know how she will react. We are here for her full force. I hope that she will be ok, I know she will, but, I'm still a little scared. Yesterday was blissful though! I'm glad we got to spend quality time with him before he goes! I'm so proud of him, and he looks AMAZING in his blues!! hahahahaha.

Diabetes control update (my new term, LOL): I've started taking Levemir twice a day. It wasn't working the full 24 hrs. I was waking up in the am with blood sugars above 300, and that was after going to sleep at 120. After correcting the high in the morning, and then taking the Levemir I felt amazing. So I've switched it to taking 12 units in the am, and 6 in the pm. So far so good. This is only day 2 though. I hope it works out. I'm still keeping my head up. I'm so thankful to have this new outlook on life. I feel AMAZING!! I forgot life could be this good.

I Will Vent, Because It's MY Blog!!

So, have you ever questioned parenting? Who who gets to be parents and who does not? How does that decision get determined? WHO determines that??? I know this is going to sound SO selfish, but in reality I'm not even talking about ME in particular. I know MANY, MANY awesome people who are or would be fantastic parents. They are TTC, and some have miscarried time and time again, it's a painful process. It takes a mental head trip on you. But, then to see people who can blame their twins on a "tumor", drink alcohol their entire pregnancy, keep it from the dad, and say she was giving them up for adoption. DO NOT PLAN OR CARE FOR THESE BABIES!!!! Then, have one, decide to keep them, and call the father 4 days later so he can see them. UGH. Why in the HELL do people like that get pregnant?! WHY?!? I don't understand it. A friend recently had her 2nd miscarriage. Idk what to say to people when that happens. I could imagine it would be very hard. =( I've been off of birth control for 26 months now. No babies. No anything. That's hard enough. I can't imagine conceiving and losing. For everyone who is TTC, miscarried, or has been through the grueling process of TTC for any amount of time--I'm sorry. I feel for you. My heart aches for you. I wish you the best. I hate that the wrong people get to experience something that they will probably never cherish. At the same time, I hope it changes those people, for the better. I'll remain optimistic about the entire thing. But, it still baffles me to the extreme.

Next point: day 2 of switching Levemir to a daytime dose. I took my full dose of 15 at 9:30 this a.m. I feel wonderful! I hope it continues this way! I've been working very hard at this. I hope to reap every reward I can from it. I've been in denial for so long. I'm not any more. I am diabetic, and I know I need to take care of myself. Next week I add exercise to my life turn around. One step at a time!

Until Next Time!

Change In Routine.

And it sucks! I take Levemir, which is a long acting (24 hr) insulin. I usually take 15 units at night before bed. I am supposed to take it religiously at the same time every night, so with gettin' myself together I have been taking it at 10 pm every night. I even set an alarm to make sure I took it on time. While taking it at 10 pm I would wake up every morning between 4-6 am with a low blood sugar. Most usually around 6. The say it has no peak, but obviously there is a damn peak, I'm getting a low at the same time. I have been checking my blood sugar before going to bed as well, it's been around 130 to go to sleep. I played with the numbers of Levemir which would end up with HIGHS all day. So that didn't help either! The night is my biggest problem, and it always has been. I always seem to get low during the night, and we all know that usually results in passing out for me. I was told NOT to take Levemir in the day time. But, because I am grown, I'm going to. Today was the big switch. I knew it was going to suck so bad. Last night at 10 pm I took 8 units. This morning at 10 am I took 8 units. Tomorrow morning at 10 am I will take 15 units. Then I'll work my way up to taking it around 7 am, because I'll always be up for school at that time. But, the switch is hard. I'm tired, my blood sugars are high. I haven't ate much today. I knew it would be hard, but still, gah it sucks. I hope switching to a day time dose will be better so that way it peaks when I'm awake and can feel getting low.

Other non diabetic news: Ryan has been working his ass off lately. 65 hours last week. BOO!!! But, I also must say, thanks babe! For working hard for me! Shoe Sensation is begging me to come back. With no luck finding another job, it's looking like I'll go. Damn. That place has a DEATH grip on me! It just won't let me go! lol. Oh well, I won't be working that much due to my 40hrs a week at school starting March 1st. The ONE person I had a problem with there, is getting "looked at". She really is a brutal boss. Funny thing is, she's only 18. She's definitely on a power trip. Had it not been for losing my job, I totally would have showed her how us, Brown Countians, do things! LOL. But, I didn't break out my fists. Which shows that I am much, much more mature than her. I thought about it, but hey, I didn't ACT on it! lol. Let's hope I get someone who calls for a different place to work. That'd be nice!! Anyone know a way to lose 10lbs fast?! Nothing TOO unhealthy. lol.

I'll end with some photography shots I've taken! Just for fun!


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The above 2 are the beautiful Tiphaney Lee Nykole Leath!


Mady, Daughter of Steve & Jennifer Lucas.


Peyton Tanner McAlister, Son of JD & Amber McAlister


I think that's all for now.
Until Next Time...

14 Year Vet.

Yep, as of Sunday, February 14th 2010 I am a strong 14-year veteran of diabetes. I usually post something on that day, but I didn't have much to say. It is what it is right? I hate that day. I always have, and I always will. Ryan and I do not celebrate it. We don't even say "Happy Valentine's Day" to each other. I like it that way. I get presents from my parents though? I guess to sugar coat the day a itty bit? Idk. This year I got $130 check to cover my Paul Mitchell admission fee, fleece pj pants with hearts, a beret, and a black shirt for school. Yep, spoiled rotten. Ry took me out to lunch at Long Horn, and then we came home and I cleaned my house like a mad woman. Then friends came over @ 5pm for family night. I am glad I got to spend the day I hate the most, with the people I love the most. So in all, it wasn't that bad. 14 years down, many more to go.
Update, I have been checking my blood sugar regularly. I have not been logging it. I HATE my log book. It's the stupidest book ever! I'm going to make my own log sheets. I should do that right after this... Good thing is that now @ 150, I feel HIGH. And under 75 I feel low. So, I am getting my body back on the right track. Wow. I am very proud of that.

I'm trying to diet and exercise because I've set up a photo shoot with Chris Yarger, of Driven Photography Company to do some proofs that I MAY submit to the Suicide Girls. Idk if I've already wrote about this, probably. I was supposed to do it on Sunday, but I just didn't feel up to it that day. You know. But, I'm very excited about it. GO SG. I wanna lose 10 pounds. And get into excellent shape. Then I'll be happy. I got some pretty cool self portraits the other day, I posted these for your viewing pleasure. lol. ;)





Other than that,I have nada to say right now.
Until next time...