Gettin' It Together.

Since figuring out "what I want to be when I grow up", and enrolling in Paul Mitchell Hair Academy, I've had a lot on my mind. First off, how and the hell am I going to stand ALL day? My feet hurt to walk around the grocery store! I do not want my diabetes, or it's complications taking something that I love, and turning it into something that I hate.
So, I've searched the Internet, the library, and my mind to come to a conclusion: be better at managing what I need to. I need to do it for myself. I need to do it for my family. I need to do it for my future. I need to do it for my friends. I need to do it for MYSELF. I've consulted my family and the people that mean the most to me, and was reassured that I would have all the support I need to get this job done. You see, every since my mom stopped taking care of me, I have not taken care of myself. She stopped measuring out my food, planning my diet, giving me my shots, and all that when I was about 12 or 13. Since that age I've run amuck, doing as I please. Basically living in denial. I've tried to straighten myself up before, without success. I think the reason I failed was because I had nothing to give me that extra push. Now, I do. I have more than enough to give me that extra shove! I finally am able to envision my life 5 years from now. I know what I want to be doing. I know what I will be doing. I know that if I don't get my shit together now, I won't be doing what I see. That is the motivation I've always needed. I said diabetes will never stop me. It will if I don't re-learn to manage it. I'm not stupid, but I am very stubborn. I've fought with that side of me for many years. I'm becoming more open minded. I'm reading every piece of literature that I can to learn more and re-teach myself about what I'm living with.
I also have my mom to count on now. We're doing this together. She has a WHOLE new understanding of diabetes, now that she's living with it! I hate it for her, but it's also nice to have someone already so close to talk to.
So, whole new look to the blog. I'll be using it to help me learn to live again. I checked my blood sugars regularly, and logged them today. I haven't done that, I've actually NEVER done that. My mom used to for me, but I've never done it for myself. Until today that is.
I woke up at 129, and stayed relatively steady all day. Almost through day one, and I'm doing ok! I know I should be around 75 in my numbers, but that feels low to me. So my goal for the next couple of months is to be from 85-120. I think that is an acceptable range considering I haven't even had a range in 8 years or so. I have one year in Paul Mitchell Academy starting March 1st. I think that is an attainable goal to learn to live with diabetes, and get myself healthier. I'll graduate from there, and have a new lease on life. My hope is to be healthy enough to work and ENJOY life.
I hope to have all of your support, I'll need it. Thanks so much for everything you all do for me. I appreciate it sincerely.