Ohhhhh, interesting point!

I'm sick of snow. I'm sick of hearing about snow. I'm sick of the color white. I'm sick of the cold. I'm sick of the wind. I want to look out my window and see pretty color flowers, leaves on trees, buds & bees. Please leave winter, please make your entrance spring!

Next topic. So, I suck at drawing but lately it's all I want to do. So I do it. It may not be too pretty, but it lets me release some creative energy that I need out! You know what I can not do? WRITE!! Or take photos. I have no desire to even look at my camera. I've tried to write, I get nothing. I hate that. For Paul Mitchell Academy I need to write 200 words about myself. HAH. I can't form a single sentence. I searched my writer's blog, but couldn't find anything I could use. Eh, I guess it will come. I just wish I never experienced these "blocks" in my creativity! I think it's normal, but that doesn't mean it doesn't stress me out. I did buy a new charcoal drawing yesterday. I'm in love with it. Ryan likes it, but says it wasn't "what he thought it was going to be". Oh well I thought I was going to have to pay $500, and I got it for $100. So I was THRILLED to say the least. It's a cabbage patch looking doll, with his throat cut. Behind him is a really sad story. I need to post pics huh? lol I will at some point. Today, I plan on making another piece for Melinda entitled "She talks to angels" because that song reminds me so much of her. ;)

Speaking of Melinda! We have started a new tradition--family night! We get together once a week for good food, games, and movies! It was so fun last Sunday! I've been looking forward to it all week! Tomorrow is the big day again! Ryan thinks it's a blast too. To keep friends close, we must make an effort to not lose each other. I think this is our effort. Thus far I think it's bringing us all much closer!

February 14th--VALENTINE'S DAY. I hate it. I always have. I like to ignore the day. It was the day in 1996 that I was diagnosed with diabetes. BITE ME V DAY!! Any who, this year is no different. I will not be getting any valentine's present, EXCEPT for this uber cool new machine that I want, and Ryan insists on getting. It's a watch looking thing that tracks your blood sugar at night. If it dips too low (which is a regular occurrence for me) it vibrates and lights up and beeps in order to wake you up! Therefore, hopefully no more passing out! That's my v-day gift. Cool by me. At least Ryan won't be constantly waking me up at night making me check my blood sugar! Technology can be great sometimes, eh? Other than my nifty new gadget to keep me from passing out, we will be celebrating Valentine's Day with our pals for family night! FOOD, GAMES, MOVIES, AND MEMORIES! Yay! For making me feel human, and not "diabetic". It will be 14 years this year. I can't remember life before it. I like it that way. Next year, the big 15, I will start my rib piece, that has everything to do with diabetes. I'm stoked. I was going to start it this year, but figured I should wait til the big 1-5. Enough of this stuff...

Lastly, I would like to say CONGRATULATIONS to Alexis Neal for passing her state boards for nursing yesterday! We celebrated with binge eating Chinese food & shopping! She is having a hard time right now, her husband is due to leave for Afghanistan soon. His 3rd tour? Please pray for her. I'm sure she'd love to hear of people keeping them in their thoughts & prayers. They are very good people. Ryan and I love them dearly!

Oh yeah--food for thought: If we evolved from monkeys. WHY ARE THERE STILL MONKEYS?!?! All kinds of them?! and apes? I'm confused. Why wouldn't we all just become human? It makes no sense to me. If you can shed light on this, please feel free. Otherwise I'm convinced I, nor my ancestors, evolved from a damn ape.

That's all I have for now, peace & love everyone.