Update Anyone?

Well, I don't have much 2 update about. On Friday, I had to start my spring break off right, with a little Captain Morgan. Usually hard liquor makes me angry, very angry. But, I was surprisingly upbeat during my drunkeness. Despite telling a few people exactly how I felt, which would have been done with or without the alcohol. I don't like people to pretend to be nice to me. It's like I know you don't like me, and guess what! I don't like you. So let's ignore each other...seems less fake. =) On Saturday, we went to Newport with Dara Jo and Mickey. We went to Game Works to watch the Big MMA Show, and play some games! We ate at Jax. OMG! Our service suckkked. I had something in my cup, something GROSS, looked much like a booger. Well, I told them about it, and they brought the SAME cup out, with the same booger-like thing. I was piiissed. To top it all off, our bill was a mere $37 and some odd cents, and the doughebag Geordan charged our card for $61. How mad was I? Yeah, very. And I was thinking the other day, I think my life would be much easier if I were ugly. The only time I feel secure is when I'm with Ryan. Because then only the people who are complete idiots are going to hit on me or say something 2 me. So me & D were walking to the bathrooms and these 2 black guys are like "dammmn" and one I think was about to touch my ass, but I wasn't havin' that. But still, that crap happens to me all the time. I refuse to go into gas stations alone most of the time, because I know all those perverted old men sit in there just waiting for some one like me to walk in. I'm not into people talking down to me. Yes, I am an attractive chick, I know this, I own a mirror. But, some dude doesn't have to talk at me like I'm only a piece of ass. A piece of ass he'd never get a chance at, that's for sure. But, yes, if I were uglier...I think I'd be ok. So, I've come to realize that my abrasiveness comes from being looked at like that. Because I'm so much more. Don't compliment me on my body, good genes did that, and/or God, but whatever. Compliment me on my freakin' intelligence, on my style, and my rade personality. I did all of those things. That's all me. If you want me to like you, then I'm telling you now, recognize not only my "beauty" but also my brains. I'll like you for sure.
On another note, I graduate May 9th. I'm in between NKU and Wilmington. So, I've got to narrow it down in the next week and a half. And yes, my major is still the same--Communication Arts. It's the only thing I'm good at. So I have a visit at Wilmington tomorrow. And I'm going to try to schedule 1 with NKU asap. My sister graduated from there. So, we will see. A lot of the professors at Chatfield are trying to talk me into taking my 3rd year there, but I really don't want to. I'm just not...not right for that school.
Ummm...what else? Me & my HUSBAND (still have a hard time saying that. haha) are doing pretty good. I still haven't changed my name. I'm going to do that on Thursday. I owe it to his ass to take his name I guess..I mean out of ALL the women in the world, he picked me to get tied down to. Who in their right mind would do that? I'm so different, well not different, just my own person. So, for him and for my future children, I'll become a Jordan. But, I'm thinkin' seriously about getting a tattoo that reads "Once a Daugherty, ALWAYS a Daugherty" ah hahahhahahha.
Ok, I'm outta here to go write some more of my autobiography, and edit some shots I took yesterday.
Peace && Love.

FOUL MOOD!

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. That's for sure!!! Plus, to top it off, the new puppy, Floyd totally ruined my glasses today. He chewed them up. Sooooo...now I gotta buy some new ones, and those I just got like last summer. So, needless to say I'm pissed off.
I've been hearing some shit. Yes, I do again talk to my friend Whitney. Yes, we've been through some shit together. Yes, we are two totally different people. But, the thing YOU don't understand is that we've been friends since before we can even remember. Our dad's were friends. So, that means we know each other more than anyone else knows us. And I truly believe that. No one knows me like she does, and no one knows her like I do. Atleast, when it comes to friends. And we've went our seperate ways for a while. And NO I didn't like what she was doing with her life, and that's partly the reason we seperated. BUT!!!! We're getting close again. And I think I misjudged her for real. So, I'm sorry for that. But, I won't apologize for being friends with anyone. Especially not her. I love that chick. We have a bond no one can break, not even us, I mean we've tried. It doesn't work. So, we are totally different, and yet we are a lot the same. So, let me put it out there---she's one of my best friends, and always will be.
I have started drawing. I'm not good yet, but I'm better than some I've seen. So, I'm sticking with it. I enjoy it a lot, a lot more than I thought I would. Mostly I like to draw still life! My mom has hung my 1st real drawing up in her office. haha. Go figure right? It's a vase with a flower, a bowl, and an apple. To be honest my flower is out of proportion with my vase, and my apple is out of proportion with my bowl. But, whatever, I'm just a beginner. Tonight I am going to get new pencils and a new sketch book. Before you know it you will not only see my writing in magazines, and my books, but you'll also have my artwork hanging in your home. Well, only if I like you enough for that. hahah. This spring break I am having 3 photo shoots. One with my friend Whitney, doing some very modern shots. I'm excited for that. One with my mom--we are recreating her as Audrey Hepburn. And immulating some her most famous shots. And of course my rugged Cowboy daddy! I'm excited. I'm going to try to put together a portfolio. There is a photography studio opening in Williamsburg soon, my hope is to get a part time job there. Even if I don't get paid. I just want some exposure. So this portfolio will be shown to this particular photographer just to show her that I am really into this and would love an opportunity, if she'd give it. Wish me luck on that!
I dyed my hair purple last night. I got my first reaction today at Arbys. I guess I'm too pretty to have purple hair? Haha. How funny is that! Ya know because this purple hair changed my face, and my personality and all the stuff that makes you pretty. Hah, it amazes me how petty people are.
Ok, I'm done ranting about all of this, it's just making me even more pissy. I'm off to work on my writer's blog. If you haven't checked it out, do it!

http://maryelizabethswords.blogspot.com

Peace && Love.

Kidneys Hurt. Yet Again.

Yep, they do. And this one came on just as fast as the other ones....sucks so bad. They just started hurting today, and I'm already pissing blood. Nice, eh? What is funny 2 me is that the drs. have NO idea why kidney infections come so hard & fast on me. So they just give me stuff to make it stop hurting, which isn't really helping because I know it'll be back in 2-4 weeks. But, it's whatever. We were supposed to go out tonight, and I was freakin' stoked...even bought a cute new outfit..then the kidneys had to take a down fall and so did our plans. But, I'll wait til next weekend, no reason 2 go & get drunk, just to end up in the hospital. I'll wait til my kidneys are on the up-n-up again. But, I must say I'm pretty dissapointed. I'm sure all who were going with us were. So, I'm sorry to them. And they don't know me, or how my kidneys work, so they probably thought I was lieing, but I'm really not. Ask around...my kidneys blow!
I have decided to go to Wilmington College for communication arts. I'm actually really excited about it. I've been thinking about it for a couple months now, I looked at my curriculum...and fell in love. I HAVE to take lots of photography, writing, and webdesign classes. HAVE TO!!! So, that put a big big smile on my face. Speaking of photography, my dad bought me studio lights today. Ya know the big ones with the silver unbrellas. I swear, he is like my biggest fan. He's always pushing for me. I love that about him. I can't wait to start the stories about him for my autobiography. I'm actually getting really excited about it. I'm going to make everyone in my family a copy of it for xmas. I won't tell you the layout, or the stories, but I'm stoookeeddd!!! =)
My husband and I are absolutely wonderful. He's decided to rock a go-tee. I hate facial hair. It absolutely disgusts me. But, I know he'll shave it off eventually...and I can't really say much, I mean he does let me do whatever I want. On Monday I'm dying my hair purple! Woot woot. So. I'm also happy about that.
About the Suicide Girls thing...I've found someone to do my hair & makeup. ANNDD I'm hiring a professional photographer to do my shots to submit. Unless something unexpected deters me, I am going through with this. I'm so happy, let's pray I get it. I mean...my dream...to be a pinup girl! Even if just once in my life. =) You have no idea...
Anyways, I'm off here for now! I love you all! Peace Bitches.

--Mrs. Jordan

Let Me Introduce Myself...

My name is now, Mary Elizabeth Jordan. Ew..still not used to it, still hate it. haha. Mrs. Jordan. Yeah, it's still not good enough. The big day is OVER. I'm kinda upset. I spent months and months planning, and then in a flash, it was gone. And for some reason I don't remember it that well. It was like a whirlwind. Seriously! I only had one tiny break down during my wedding day, which I thought was good! And it wasn't anything bad, just people wanting a piece of me, and I just wanted to have a minute by myself.
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!

----MRS. JORDAN----

2 weeekkkksssss!!!!

Yes! 2 weeks to go, until our big day.I am under some major, major stress. I'm completely overwhelmed. But, I think I'm not showing it. Which is good. hah.
Umm..it's been a long while since I've updated...well over a month! But, a friend of mine joined, and gave me her URL, and I was like uhh..I have one of those...I bet people are waiting for an update! Oh yeah and a professor of mine, was just telling me how he was reading my blog the other day. So HI MR. STEVE-O!!!! =)

So. I am the complete NONTRADITIONAL bride. My dress is frickin' amazing. Ivory lace, with a black lace train, and leopard print sash. Oh hell yes! lol. My cake topper is a skeleton couple. My bridal party will be dressed in black--so Johnny Cash. I'm getting excited, but I still know how much I have to do....therefore I'm still stressed out. As you all know I'm the queen of procrastination, therefore I really do have a lot to do. I suppose I did it to myself, so only I to blame. Pics asap! Promise.

In other news, I've added to my sleeve. I've got the top, outside part of my arm done. It's a beaufiful Rosie the Riveter. And I love her. Speaking of tattoos..I was hanging at the shop today, which I do most Fridays...help out, and bull shit mostly. But anyways, I was hit on my a black man with a grill...that creeped me out. THEN!!!! Another guy came in, a cousin of a friend. And I honestly have to say I have never in my life been talked to in such a manner. I mean, I don't think a pornstar has been talked to that way. I was severely uncomfortable. I wished my Ryan was there. I stood up for myself of course, but still...I was just absolutely appalled. Yuckkk. Forget guys like that. It makes me happy to have my Ry. To him I'm not just a piece of ass, I'm so much more. Makes me thankful that I've found someone to appreciate me in my entirty, and not just my face, and or body.

Carter our dog ran away, actually he had to be picked up by someone. Stupid bitches. I'm still heartbroken by it. We've got a new puppy though--Floyd. Ohhhh yay! Training ALL OVER AGAIN. No fun. But he is a cutie patootie. He's an American Bull Dog-Pitbull mix. He's going to out grow Case, and fast. ahahahah. Thus, far they have been wonderful with eachother.

I graduate in May. I just recieved stuff from my college about it. Apparently I have to pay a fee & write an essay to graduate. Like I haven't paid or written enough in the 2 years that I've been there. Ugh. pisses me the hell off. Where am I going next? Wellllllll...Wilmington?!?! Idk. I'm thinking about majoring in Communication Arts. I mean I do Love love love to write & to talk. So what the hell could I ask for? Lol. I'm not sure. If I could I'd get a bach. in liberal arts. But what the hell would I do with a degree like that? Ughh..life. It's so stressful.

This summer I am hoping to do some stuff for myself. Culture myself, if you please. Like painting classes! photography classes! writing workshops! and Piano lessons!! Maybe not all, but atleast one! I'm excited. I also thought about going to school to do hair...just because. Not that I would want to do that as a full time job. But, I think it'd be super fun. Ah who knows.

I'm just livin' one day at a time.
Updates soon...promise.

Peace && Love.

How Long Has It Been??

Happy New Year everyone! Wow. It's been a couple of minutes since I've jotted some stuff for you guys. Well, I'm into my last semester at Chatfield. These classes I'm taking seem like they're going to really challenge me. All of them. That's the first time that's ever happened to me while attending Chatfield. And I'm glad I did. Now I'll feel like I've EARNED my degree from there. Ah! I'm in autobiography...so I'll be writing my life story! Woo hoo. My mom is happy. haha.

Did you know??! Ryan & I are getting married. Yeah, less than 2 months. March 14, 2009. I asked him. But, if you want to read more on that visit our wedding website. That is already taking up too much of my time, so I refuse to write about it on my personal venting time!

http://www.momentville.com/R-M

What else is new? Hmmm..I've started working out. It's been about 3 weeks ago...I feel so much better. I run 4 miles 5 times a week, I also do strength training 3 times a week, and circut training once. Let's just say I'm at the gym daily. For a good cause though. I haven't lost any numbers on that damn scale yet though, but I do feel better. So I tell the scale to screw off. ahhaha.

My sister & her family have moved to Mississippi. It's only about 6 hours away, instead of 12. Yay! We are taking a quick weekend trip. We're leaving tonight. I'm so excited to see my family.

Other than school and wedding planning, I don't have a lot of extra time.
This is all I have for now.
I'll update soon! PROMISE!!!

I've Come To Realize...

It's been a while since I've posted anything. But, in that time I've figured out a lot of stuff!!
First of all, and most importantly, I asked Ryan to marry me! Y'all know how I am, I can't wait, I'm so impatient. When I know what I want I get it!! Therefore, I asked him! And of course he said yes! =) March 14th is the big day. Thus far we've had nothing but love and support about it. So in about 5 months I'll be Mrs. Mary Jordan. Wooo hoooo!!
Secondly, I'm going to be transferring to Xavier University after I graduate from Chatfield. I'm going to be studying to be an Radiology Technician! Then I would really like to continue studying to be a radiologist. But, we all know HOW much time & money that takes! I'm not too sure about that. I may just be a radiology tech & do some other stuff part-time as well. I'll be getting 2 degrees from XU, the radiology tech, and my BA in Liberal Arts.
My nerve damage from diabetes has gotten so much worse. I've had to be put on some medicine for it. I hate that. That's another reasoning for my apprehension to go on to be a radiologist. I may only be able to work part-time. I got a job, I worked 3 days, 6 hour shifts. On day 4 I couldn't even get out of bed, I literally couldn't walk--that's how bad my feet hurt. No need to say it, but I had to quit. So, now I'm eating healthier, taking my meds, and vitamins. I'm trying really hard to make it stay the same. Nerve damage is not reversable...so it's sad to say that it may just stay this bad for a while. I'm working on being a better diabetic! For me, for my family && friends, and my future family && career.
I've been working my ass off at school! I'm going to be a member of Phi Theta Kappa, which is an international honor society, and if I keep my grades up I'll also be a member of the Julia Chatfield Honor Society (which is the honor soceity for my college). I've registered classes for my final semester at Chatfield, I'm taking 5!
1). Children Of The Holocaust.
2). Autobiography.
3) Personal Economics.
4). Human Bio.
5). Intro To Sociology.

So, that's an update on my life for now...
I hope people realize that I'm not lazy. I know I don't work, I know Ryan "takes care of me". But, I work my ass of in school, so that one day I'll support him! I wish people knew how much I really did in a day. I'm not lazy, I'm not a quitter.

I'll update soon!