My Mondays Are Dedicated 2 School.

Not by choice though, because I'm a horrible student. I'm in a bad relationship, a really bad one. My partner's name is Procrastination. And he always wins. lol!!!! So, I hang out with procrastination all week, and then when Monday comes around, and school starts again tomorrow...I get on the ball, and do nothing but homework. Blahhh. Horrible way to live, but hey, it got me this far. If I could get out of my relationship with Procrastination, I would. But, I've tried, and he has such a hold on me. lol. And yes, I did just turn my flaw, into a fictional storyish kind of thing...how amazing right? It must be because I'm a writer at heart. lol!
Ummmm...update? I've set a tour date on Friday for NKU. Probably will not go to the school, I didn't even like how I was talked to on the phone, just called in, and already they had to ask me my name 10million times. The funny thing is that NKU isn't even that big of a school, not really any ways. My father will be acccompanying me to this one. Oh boy! He has NKU Norse shirts from my sister, I wonder if he will wear one? LMAO. I'm getting ready for the big graduation day. =) It doesn't even seem that important. Like it wasn't hard for me to get where I am, so no need to celebrate it right? Ryan bought dress shoes for my graduation!!!!! Holy crap!!! That's probably why it's so rainy outside!
Ummm...we went to see the new Fast & Furious. It was pretty amazing. It made me want to be tall & skinny, like all those chicks. Lol. But Ryan says I have a lot of growing to do before I reach their height, and I say I have a lot of weight to loose before I reach their number on the scale. Speaking of that...I'm starting on Wednesday to work out. I find that if you pick the middle of the week to start a work out routine, it usually works better. I stick to it more. My goal? I don't have a number in mind...I was musclular at one point...then it turned to fat, so now I have even more muscle to gain. So my number will be big, but I'll be a lean biotch. So as I always say, screw the number! My real goal is to be able to wear shorts this summer...NOT BOYS BALL SHORTS..but girls shorts. And feel super confident in them. =) THAT is my goal!
I did some portrait shots of my mom the other day. I was so excited about them that I uploaded them to myspace without even editing them. As I usually do. Which is my biggest mistake as "photographer". But, whatever. I'm not here to please anyone.
I've been talking to Ms. Makara Barger...Woody's girl. She's pretty cool, but she needs to get away from his dumb ass. Farrrr away. She's gonna come with me to D's shop soon. It would be Friday, but I've got to go to NKU. Sooo...I'm not sure if that will happen. It may though, I really miss my Dara Jo. Speaking of friends that I miss...I miiisss Melinda Fay Johnson. =/ I've sent you quite a few texts, unanswered. What up with that? Hopefully you're phone was dead or something. Otherwise...that really sucks. lol. Anyways, I do miss you! ;)
I'm getting off of here to do some HW.


Peace && Love.

Call Me Free Bird!

Since I have no more chains. At least for the time being. I'm feeling pretty damn good. I find it super amazing how one decision can make so much of a difference. My head is in a completely different place. I no longer have the world on my shoulders, just my future. Which right now doesn't seem so heavy. Because I know I'm phenomenal!!!! =)
I've realized that I am a dabbler, and I like it. I dabble in writing, blogging, drawing, poetry, song writing, scrap booking, glass staining, blah. blah. blah. I could go on for days. How awesome is that? I do what ever I want. hahah.
Ummm..not much to blog about today, other than my awesome mood, or change of life. =)
I just wanted to say, I'm in love and I'm completely happy. I've risen above the doubt. Nothing is going to stop me now! Watch me spread my wings and soar.
Until next time,

Peace && Love.

The Storm Is OVER?!

Yeah, I'm having a super excellent day. I'm so happy. I haven't felt this good in a looong while. First things first, I went to my visit at Wilmington. I LOVED IT. I'm not even going to contemplate NKU anymore. I know I could get in there, and I really don't care. I've found where I think I should be. The communication arts department was pretty effin' amazing. Loved it. Campus is still rather small, a lot more walking than Chatfield, but that was to be expected. So! Yeah, I'm in junior in standing there, which was one of the things I was worried about. So all my BS classes are taken care of pretty much..and I'm on my way to my specialized classes. I'm taking my PE class at Chatfield this summer though, just to get that out of the way--self defense! With Mr. John Dvorachek. Hopefully he will teach me something I can use, and there's another plus--I get to shoot big guns!! CHHYEAH!!! =)
Secondly, I got to spend all day with Ryan. He didn't go to work today, he went with me to Wilmington. He didn't want to, I know he didn't, but he did. Which shows me that he really really loves me. He didn't have much to say other than it was my decision, and only I can make it. Which is true, but his silent support was all I needed. When I said yes, this is the place, he said "I knew it. I knew it from the get go." So! That was cool. I've loved having him around all day. We rarely get days to just hang and let loose. It's just what we've needed for a while. I've been asking myself, why in the world is he with me? Like he isn't into anything I am. He doesn't like respond to any of my "projects" "hobbies" or "interests" really. Like my writing or photography or drawing or anything. So I felt today was a good day to ask him about that. He started immediately getting defensive "yes i do" "i love your art" "i always enjoy your stuff" "i love looking at your pictures" So I said you've never read any of my writing. He said, I've read all of your stuff, and looked at all of your pictures, you just don't know it. He said anytime any time I find something on our computer, or on your myspace I jump at the chance to read it, and I like to look at your picutures and your drawings, I'm probably your biggest fan. You just don't know it. Can we say OMG!!!! That made my day. Wilmington aside. To know that my husband, even though he doesn't say it out loud, or praise me constantly about what I do, actually enjoys what I do, and "jumps at the chance to read and/or see it" Wow. I was so happy. It made me feel so loved. For a minute there I was wondering why he wasn't part of that side of me, but I guess I just never took the time to see if he truly was or wasn't. And I def. didn't ask him what he thought about it, or if he was my fan. But, he's always there for me, and I was just feeling a bit insecure. He totally cured me of it though. I love that kid with all my heart. There's no one in the world I'd rather have my heart than him.
Thirdly, When I got home I got a letter in the mail. Wanna know what it said?? That I was accepted into the Phi Theta Kappa honor society. Which is NATIONALLY recognized for those of you who didn't know. So, that also made my day. Another good thing about today, at Wilmington I AUTOMATICALLY get 10k from them, for having such a good GPA. OMG!!!! 10K!! That brings my tuition down to practically what Chatfield's is. So all my hard work, or not hard work, but all my work is finally paying off!! Yay me!
Another thing is that I got to see my Dara Jo today. We came to the shop. She made money, and Ryan got his rat fink worked on. Or should I say, she is making me money, and he is getting worked on as I type. But, he's been wanting to get some work for a while. But, Ryan brought up my new hobby of drawing, and she said...."why don't you learn to tattoo and come work with me here at the shop" and I said...."teach me. teach me to tattoo. apprentice me." At this point, I TOTALLY thought it was a joke. She said "i will! but let me talk to Billy (the owner) first. But, keep drawing!" And I said "I will. can I have some of these tattoo mags?" LOL!!! But, yeah, so that has me pretty stoked too. I'm not sure what else could go on today that will be good. But, I'm not asking or hoping for anything else. It's been more than I can ask for. And I'm finally feelin' like for once in a long time, I'm exactly where I need to be, and exactly on the path to get to where I want to go. Until next time,

Peace && Love

Update Anyone?

Well, I don't have much 2 update about. On Friday, I had to start my spring break off right, with a little Captain Morgan. Usually hard liquor makes me angry, very angry. But, I was surprisingly upbeat during my drunkeness. Despite telling a few people exactly how I felt, which would have been done with or without the alcohol. I don't like people to pretend to be nice to me. It's like I know you don't like me, and guess what! I don't like you. So let's ignore each other...seems less fake. =) On Saturday, we went to Newport with Dara Jo and Mickey. We went to Game Works to watch the Big MMA Show, and play some games! We ate at Jax. OMG! Our service suckkked. I had something in my cup, something GROSS, looked much like a booger. Well, I told them about it, and they brought the SAME cup out, with the same booger-like thing. I was piiissed. To top it all off, our bill was a mere $37 and some odd cents, and the doughebag Geordan charged our card for $61. How mad was I? Yeah, very. And I was thinking the other day, I think my life would be much easier if I were ugly. The only time I feel secure is when I'm with Ryan. Because then only the people who are complete idiots are going to hit on me or say something 2 me. So me & D were walking to the bathrooms and these 2 black guys are like "dammmn" and one I think was about to touch my ass, but I wasn't havin' that. But still, that crap happens to me all the time. I refuse to go into gas stations alone most of the time, because I know all those perverted old men sit in there just waiting for some one like me to walk in. I'm not into people talking down to me. Yes, I am an attractive chick, I know this, I own a mirror. But, some dude doesn't have to talk at me like I'm only a piece of ass. A piece of ass he'd never get a chance at, that's for sure. But, yes, if I were uglier...I think I'd be ok. So, I've come to realize that my abrasiveness comes from being looked at like that. Because I'm so much more. Don't compliment me on my body, good genes did that, and/or God, but whatever. Compliment me on my freakin' intelligence, on my style, and my rade personality. I did all of those things. That's all me. If you want me to like you, then I'm telling you now, recognize not only my "beauty" but also my brains. I'll like you for sure.
On another note, I graduate May 9th. I'm in between NKU and Wilmington. So, I've got to narrow it down in the next week and a half. And yes, my major is still the same--Communication Arts. It's the only thing I'm good at. So I have a visit at Wilmington tomorrow. And I'm going to try to schedule 1 with NKU asap. My sister graduated from there. So, we will see. A lot of the professors at Chatfield are trying to talk me into taking my 3rd year there, but I really don't want to. I'm just not...not right for that school.
Ummm...what else? Me & my HUSBAND (still have a hard time saying that. haha) are doing pretty good. I still haven't changed my name. I'm going to do that on Thursday. I owe it to his ass to take his name I guess..I mean out of ALL the women in the world, he picked me to get tied down to. Who in their right mind would do that? I'm so different, well not different, just my own person. So, for him and for my future children, I'll become a Jordan. But, I'm thinkin' seriously about getting a tattoo that reads "Once a Daugherty, ALWAYS a Daugherty" ah hahahhahahha.
Ok, I'm outta here to go write some more of my autobiography, and edit some shots I took yesterday.
Peace && Love.

FOUL MOOD!

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. That's for sure!!! Plus, to top it off, the new puppy, Floyd totally ruined my glasses today. He chewed them up. Sooooo...now I gotta buy some new ones, and those I just got like last summer. So, needless to say I'm pissed off.
I've been hearing some shit. Yes, I do again talk to my friend Whitney. Yes, we've been through some shit together. Yes, we are two totally different people. But, the thing YOU don't understand is that we've been friends since before we can even remember. Our dad's were friends. So, that means we know each other more than anyone else knows us. And I truly believe that. No one knows me like she does, and no one knows her like I do. Atleast, when it comes to friends. And we've went our seperate ways for a while. And NO I didn't like what she was doing with her life, and that's partly the reason we seperated. BUT!!!! We're getting close again. And I think I misjudged her for real. So, I'm sorry for that. But, I won't apologize for being friends with anyone. Especially not her. I love that chick. We have a bond no one can break, not even us, I mean we've tried. It doesn't work. So, we are totally different, and yet we are a lot the same. So, let me put it out there---she's one of my best friends, and always will be.
I have started drawing. I'm not good yet, but I'm better than some I've seen. So, I'm sticking with it. I enjoy it a lot, a lot more than I thought I would. Mostly I like to draw still life! My mom has hung my 1st real drawing up in her office. haha. Go figure right? It's a vase with a flower, a bowl, and an apple. To be honest my flower is out of proportion with my vase, and my apple is out of proportion with my bowl. But, whatever, I'm just a beginner. Tonight I am going to get new pencils and a new sketch book. Before you know it you will not only see my writing in magazines, and my books, but you'll also have my artwork hanging in your home. Well, only if I like you enough for that. hahah. This spring break I am having 3 photo shoots. One with my friend Whitney, doing some very modern shots. I'm excited for that. One with my mom--we are recreating her as Audrey Hepburn. And immulating some her most famous shots. And of course my rugged Cowboy daddy! I'm excited. I'm going to try to put together a portfolio. There is a photography studio opening in Williamsburg soon, my hope is to get a part time job there. Even if I don't get paid. I just want some exposure. So this portfolio will be shown to this particular photographer just to show her that I am really into this and would love an opportunity, if she'd give it. Wish me luck on that!
I dyed my hair purple last night. I got my first reaction today at Arbys. I guess I'm too pretty to have purple hair? Haha. How funny is that! Ya know because this purple hair changed my face, and my personality and all the stuff that makes you pretty. Hah, it amazes me how petty people are.
Ok, I'm done ranting about all of this, it's just making me even more pissy. I'm off to work on my writer's blog. If you haven't checked it out, do it!

http://maryelizabethswords.blogspot.com

Peace && Love.

Kidneys Hurt. Yet Again.

Yep, they do. And this one came on just as fast as the other ones....sucks so bad. They just started hurting today, and I'm already pissing blood. Nice, eh? What is funny 2 me is that the drs. have NO idea why kidney infections come so hard & fast on me. So they just give me stuff to make it stop hurting, which isn't really helping because I know it'll be back in 2-4 weeks. But, it's whatever. We were supposed to go out tonight, and I was freakin' stoked...even bought a cute new outfit..then the kidneys had to take a down fall and so did our plans. But, I'll wait til next weekend, no reason 2 go & get drunk, just to end up in the hospital. I'll wait til my kidneys are on the up-n-up again. But, I must say I'm pretty dissapointed. I'm sure all who were going with us were. So, I'm sorry to them. And they don't know me, or how my kidneys work, so they probably thought I was lieing, but I'm really not. Ask around...my kidneys blow!
I have decided to go to Wilmington College for communication arts. I'm actually really excited about it. I've been thinking about it for a couple months now, I looked at my curriculum...and fell in love. I HAVE to take lots of photography, writing, and webdesign classes. HAVE TO!!! So, that put a big big smile on my face. Speaking of photography, my dad bought me studio lights today. Ya know the big ones with the silver unbrellas. I swear, he is like my biggest fan. He's always pushing for me. I love that about him. I can't wait to start the stories about him for my autobiography. I'm actually getting really excited about it. I'm going to make everyone in my family a copy of it for xmas. I won't tell you the layout, or the stories, but I'm stoookeeddd!!! =)
My husband and I are absolutely wonderful. He's decided to rock a go-tee. I hate facial hair. It absolutely disgusts me. But, I know he'll shave it off eventually...and I can't really say much, I mean he does let me do whatever I want. On Monday I'm dying my hair purple! Woot woot. So. I'm also happy about that.
About the Suicide Girls thing...I've found someone to do my hair & makeup. ANNDD I'm hiring a professional photographer to do my shots to submit. Unless something unexpected deters me, I am going through with this. I'm so happy, let's pray I get it. I mean...my dream...to be a pinup girl! Even if just once in my life. =) You have no idea...
Anyways, I'm off here for now! I love you all! Peace Bitches.

--Mrs. Jordan

Let Me Introduce Myself...

My name is now, Mary Elizabeth Jordan. Ew..still not used to it, still hate it. haha. Mrs. Jordan. Yeah, it's still not good enough. The big day is OVER. I'm kinda upset. I spent months and months planning, and then in a flash, it was gone. And for some reason I don't remember it that well. It was like a whirlwind. Seriously! I only had one tiny break down during my wedding day, which I thought was good! And it wasn't anything bad, just people wanting a piece of me, and I just wanted to have a minute by myself.
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!

----MRS. JORDAN----