2 weeekkkksssss!!!!

Yes! 2 weeks to go, until our big day.I am under some major, major stress. I'm completely overwhelmed. But, I think I'm not showing it. Which is good. hah.
Umm..it's been a long while since I've updated...well over a month! But, a friend of mine joined, and gave me her URL, and I was like uhh..I have one of those...I bet people are waiting for an update! Oh yeah and a professor of mine, was just telling me how he was reading my blog the other day. So HI MR. STEVE-O!!!! =)

So. I am the complete NONTRADITIONAL bride. My dress is frickin' amazing. Ivory lace, with a black lace train, and leopard print sash. Oh hell yes! lol. My cake topper is a skeleton couple. My bridal party will be dressed in black--so Johnny Cash. I'm getting excited, but I still know how much I have to do....therefore I'm still stressed out. As you all know I'm the queen of procrastination, therefore I really do have a lot to do. I suppose I did it to myself, so only I to blame. Pics asap! Promise.

In other news, I've added to my sleeve. I've got the top, outside part of my arm done. It's a beaufiful Rosie the Riveter. And I love her. Speaking of tattoos..I was hanging at the shop today, which I do most Fridays...help out, and bull shit mostly. But anyways, I was hit on my a black man with a grill...that creeped me out. THEN!!!! Another guy came in, a cousin of a friend. And I honestly have to say I have never in my life been talked to in such a manner. I mean, I don't think a pornstar has been talked to that way. I was severely uncomfortable. I wished my Ryan was there. I stood up for myself of course, but still...I was just absolutely appalled. Yuckkk. Forget guys like that. It makes me happy to have my Ry. To him I'm not just a piece of ass, I'm so much more. Makes me thankful that I've found someone to appreciate me in my entirty, and not just my face, and or body.

Carter our dog ran away, actually he had to be picked up by someone. Stupid bitches. I'm still heartbroken by it. We've got a new puppy though--Floyd. Ohhhh yay! Training ALL OVER AGAIN. No fun. But he is a cutie patootie. He's an American Bull Dog-Pitbull mix. He's going to out grow Case, and fast. ahahahah. Thus, far they have been wonderful with eachother.

I graduate in May. I just recieved stuff from my college about it. Apparently I have to pay a fee & write an essay to graduate. Like I haven't paid or written enough in the 2 years that I've been there. Ugh. pisses me the hell off. Where am I going next? Wellllllll...Wilmington?!?! Idk. I'm thinking about majoring in Communication Arts. I mean I do Love love love to write & to talk. So what the hell could I ask for? Lol. I'm not sure. If I could I'd get a bach. in liberal arts. But what the hell would I do with a degree like that? Ughh..life. It's so stressful.

This summer I am hoping to do some stuff for myself. Culture myself, if you please. Like painting classes! photography classes! writing workshops! and Piano lessons!! Maybe not all, but atleast one! I'm excited. I also thought about going to school to do hair...just because. Not that I would want to do that as a full time job. But, I think it'd be super fun. Ah who knows.

I'm just livin' one day at a time.
Updates soon...promise.

Peace && Love.

How Long Has It Been??

Happy New Year everyone! Wow. It's been a couple of minutes since I've jotted some stuff for you guys. Well, I'm into my last semester at Chatfield. These classes I'm taking seem like they're going to really challenge me. All of them. That's the first time that's ever happened to me while attending Chatfield. And I'm glad I did. Now I'll feel like I've EARNED my degree from there. Ah! I'm in autobiography...so I'll be writing my life story! Woo hoo. My mom is happy. haha.

Did you know??! Ryan & I are getting married. Yeah, less than 2 months. March 14, 2009. I asked him. But, if you want to read more on that visit our wedding website. That is already taking up too much of my time, so I refuse to write about it on my personal venting time!

http://www.momentville.com/R-M

What else is new? Hmmm..I've started working out. It's been about 3 weeks ago...I feel so much better. I run 4 miles 5 times a week, I also do strength training 3 times a week, and circut training once. Let's just say I'm at the gym daily. For a good cause though. I haven't lost any numbers on that damn scale yet though, but I do feel better. So I tell the scale to screw off. ahhaha.

My sister & her family have moved to Mississippi. It's only about 6 hours away, instead of 12. Yay! We are taking a quick weekend trip. We're leaving tonight. I'm so excited to see my family.

Other than school and wedding planning, I don't have a lot of extra time.
This is all I have for now.
I'll update soon! PROMISE!!!

I've Come To Realize...

It's been a while since I've posted anything. But, in that time I've figured out a lot of stuff!!
First of all, and most importantly, I asked Ryan to marry me! Y'all know how I am, I can't wait, I'm so impatient. When I know what I want I get it!! Therefore, I asked him! And of course he said yes! =) March 14th is the big day. Thus far we've had nothing but love and support about it. So in about 5 months I'll be Mrs. Mary Jordan. Wooo hoooo!!
Secondly, I'm going to be transferring to Xavier University after I graduate from Chatfield. I'm going to be studying to be an Radiology Technician! Then I would really like to continue studying to be a radiologist. But, we all know HOW much time & money that takes! I'm not too sure about that. I may just be a radiology tech & do some other stuff part-time as well. I'll be getting 2 degrees from XU, the radiology tech, and my BA in Liberal Arts.
My nerve damage from diabetes has gotten so much worse. I've had to be put on some medicine for it. I hate that. That's another reasoning for my apprehension to go on to be a radiologist. I may only be able to work part-time. I got a job, I worked 3 days, 6 hour shifts. On day 4 I couldn't even get out of bed, I literally couldn't walk--that's how bad my feet hurt. No need to say it, but I had to quit. So, now I'm eating healthier, taking my meds, and vitamins. I'm trying really hard to make it stay the same. Nerve damage is not reversable...so it's sad to say that it may just stay this bad for a while. I'm working on being a better diabetic! For me, for my family && friends, and my future family && career.
I've been working my ass off at school! I'm going to be a member of Phi Theta Kappa, which is an international honor society, and if I keep my grades up I'll also be a member of the Julia Chatfield Honor Society (which is the honor soceity for my college). I've registered classes for my final semester at Chatfield, I'm taking 5!
1). Children Of The Holocaust.
2). Autobiography.
3) Personal Economics.
4). Human Bio.
5). Intro To Sociology.

So, that's an update on my life for now...
I hope people realize that I'm not lazy. I know I don't work, I know Ryan "takes care of me". But, I work my ass of in school, so that one day I'll support him! I wish people knew how much I really did in a day. I'm not lazy, I'm not a quitter.

I'll update soon!

Soul-Searching.

So, I graduate college in about 7 months with an associate's degree in Liberal Arts. Sounds great right? Yeahhh, but where do I go next? What do I want to do? How do I want to go about getting what I want? How do I go about finding what I want out of life? Are you getting the point I'm making? Lol. I don't know what I want. I just know whatever I do I want to enjoy every second of it. I'm seriously not bothered with the money aspect of it. I mean money is nice, but I just want to be happy. Did y'all know I'm a writer? Hah. No? Well I am, and even though my writing is one of my strong qualities, it's so difficult for me. I'd love to write for a living. I'd love to do something off-beat, something I don't feel oppressed by. So here is what is and has been weighing on my mind. I want so many things!! I just don't know where I want to go next. AHHHHHH!!! Help!!
Other news...me & Ryan are doing very very well, as usual. My dgos are as stubborn & spoiled as EVER! But, I love them!!! lol. I wish I could know what the hell they were thinking. We are headed down to Florida tomorrow. My sis is moving to Tennessee, she needs time to go do whatever..enrolll kids in school & daycare, get a place to live, all that adult stuff. So, we're going to take care of her kids for the week! Yay! I miss them something horrible. My plan is to take this time to explore the world of photography. FL is a much more eye-pleasing place than Ohio, don't we all agree? If I like it...I might be a photographer..who knows?!
I'll update about my trip to FL && what excitement that brings when I get back. I'm so glad to be getting away for a while. Getting away from everything!! Ah, I believe it's much needed, to clear my head. Write to you soon! Thanks for all the support!!

((Here is my latest, a profile of myself. Small profile..hope you enjoy it...))

Soul Searching
The lights are dimming and the crowd settling; they're all waiting for the performance. As show time begins to creep closer, the anxiety this girl is feeling intensifies. She thinks of herself as a girl because she doesn't yet know what she wants out of life, or what she has to offer. Others in her life would beg to differ, thinking she is a puzzle beautifully pieced together. She is her own worst critic, and knows this firmly. She is still trying to find her way. She lives for today and only today, so she thinks, even though her future is on her mind constantly.

Her world on the outside seems seamless, but if you look beneath there is uneven stitches and popped buttons. All these problems can be fixed, even though at times she feels like they can't be because there isn't enough time! The big run-way show is about to start! She'll be graduating college in about seven months. Excited is what people think she is, but petrified is what she feels. She has no clue where or what she wants to do next. She has a million ideas, but nothing concrete. She doesn't want to live a boring life, so she thinks more about how she would like to work instead of what she would like to do for work. A free-lance type career is what she is shooting for, just for the unpredictability of it. That could be anything! A writer, photographer, graphic-designer, but is this something she really wants to do for the rest of her life? Just because she doesn't want a hum-drum-nine-to-five life?

Writing and photography are a few of her passions and hobbies. Turning them into a career seems like it would be a slice of bliss, but scares her to death that she'd end up hating the few things she loves to do. It is well known that money is the root of all evil. Maybe that root would turn her blissful career into a nightmare? She often remembers a quote from the great Marilyn Monroe who she truly marvels, "I don't want to make money, I just want to be wonderful." Happiness is truly what she wants, but money is just as desirable, no matter what people say. Mostly, then the contemplation of what she is good at and what she can make a go-ahead at, boils down to is this- is she good enough? As mentioned before, she is very aware that she is her own worst critic, but this is a dog-eat-dog world. She just wants to know if she'll be the one feasting, or the feast. The uncertainty pains her already too critical mind.

She could survive in this bullish world, whether being the bruiser or the beaten. She has a good sense of who she is, even if she doesn't know what she wants. Her morals and values are there as if engraved in stone for all to read. They will remain whether she becomes a writer or a veterinarian. Her parents and boyfriend show her the utmost support in everything she does. Her parents have said the cliché "you can do anything you want to do!" But, the difference is that they actually believe it! Her boyfriend, while being frustrated with her fickle ways, reassures her every step, "I know you'll be wonderful at whatever you do, I'm just still waiting for you to pick something." This is part of the reason she would make it in this cruel world. Her family and friends to keep her back straight and chin up. They'd be there to spit her own words right back at her, "kiss my ass," just so she wouldn't forget to tell those who need to hear just that.

This girl has the world in her white-knuckled- grip, and refuses to let is slip away. Her name is Mary Daugherty. Watch out, you'll know her one day, for something. For now she has a lot of small stitches, and buttons to fix in the fabric of her life. Her big fashion show starts in seven months. Even through her own hesitation, the show must go on! She'll end it with a bang, and leave you speechless.

((if you liked..GREAT!! most of my stuff is posted on my space, www.myspace.com/goofymaryelizabeth--check it out!!))

Just A Little Something.

So, want an update? Hmm..not much new as of yet. Got the forearm tat done. Not sure when I'll be getting the 2nd part of my sleeve done...not too worried about it at the moment either. I'm trying to decide where I want to go once I graduate Chatfield. Believe me! I'm so ready to get out of there. I need a change of pace or scenery or something. Me && Ryan are wonderful. We're going to visit family in FL the last week of October. Excited about that. My boy needs && deserves a little vacation! That's for sure. I can't really think of anything else to say so good night for now.

I Must Be A Liberal.

So! Long time,eh? Since the last time you decided to read my blog a lot has changed! First, Friday 9/26 I turned 20!! No more teenage years to mess up. So does this mean I'm an adult now? Or was that 18? I'm not sure..nothing feels different, I'm still me. Oh yeahhh..I'm not longer with the knife selling company. For many reasons..I could see how it could work for others, but it wasn't going to work out for me. Although, I'm sold on Cutco knives..I'm officially a customer for life! lol.

Uhmm...soo about college. How many people have given you the excust "I can't afford it." LOL!! Wow, I know right? A lot of people use that lame excuse. You can't afford NOT to go, is my reply to them. It's perfectly ok with me if you don't want to go to college, it's not for everyone ya know? But just say that! I don't want to go! Not come up with a million excuses while you can't go. For every excuse you come up with, I can name 10 reasons to go! Sorry that's my rant about that. I just have been hearing that a lot, and you'd be surprised at what you can & cannot afford.

Other news..I got a new tattoo on Sunday. It was my birthday gift from Ryan. I hear I'm spoiled. Does that automatically make me a horrible brat? Because when I think of spoiled..an image of a bratty girl crying because she didn't get her way pops up in my head. Oh how I hope that's not me...I don't think so though, because I appreciate everything! Anyways, about the new ink I'm rockin'..it's the first sitting of my SLEEVE! Yesss! I have been telling people for a year now..since my last bday that for my 20th bday I was going to start a sleeve. And I did, it all fell into place! =) Oh believe me, I can't wait to finish it. I've taken SOOO much shit from people at school. Which is quite ridiculous if you ask me because I couldn't really care less if they do or do not like it, it's not their body. I've heard some pretty funny things though. "tattoos are so trashy" <---that one was really funny to me because part of my tattoo is leapord print! so mine must really be trashy! LOL!! "I must be a liberal" lol wtf? seriously I am, but how does one know that from a tattoo? "One day you'll be 40..." My reaction to that one? Ok! Ok! I'll tell you..."Yep, I'll be 40 with a sleeve full of flowers && Leapord print, and I'll still look good" muahahhahaaha. Anyways, now, why do you think so many people are offended by tattoos? I'm seriously curious. I can't figure it out. It's not their body..yet it still bothers them. Hm. idk..if you have some input on that I'd surely like to know.

Other than that, on Sunday Ryan && I celebrated our 6 year anniversary. Umm..the fair was fun! We are proud owners of fish now! lol. And we're buying 110 gallon fish tank for the living room. =) I'm not sure, but I think I've got everything..I'll update soon! Enjoy the pics of my tats!!

Just for the record--I am a liberal!! Can't you tell by all my ink? hahahaha

Newest 1. Start of the sleeve--right arm.


On my right thigh...portrait of my mom.


Left shoulder blade...tribute to papaw.


Left wrist. medic alert--diabetic.


Left foot. Irish "hope" symbol. ((my 1st one.))

I'm Oh So Good At Selling Myself!

Soooo...what's different is what you're thinking right?
RIGHT! I totally snagged a job.
It was actually bu accident.
Anyways, I was searching my all time fave website, GOOGLE!
And I found this company called Vector, that actually targets college students as employees!
You can only imagine the excitement I felt, right?
Anywho, I went to their website to check it out.
They actually give $250,000 worth of scholarships to their employees!
At this point I was totally sold.
BUT, I filled out an application.
They called 15 minutes later!
WTF?! I went to an interview that same day!
It was a 2 part process..
I got through both parts, as well as a position with the company.
Now, for what I actually do.
I seel kitchen cutlery.
But, lucky me I get paid whether people buy, or not!
The presentation takes a whole 30-40 minutes & I get paid $15.
So, $15 for a half hour?! lol.
I'm still siked.
I'm not sure though if I'm totally comfortable with going to people's houses, I mean I love love love the product, actually bought some!
So, it's not like I'm not a believer of the stuff.
Actually I strongly recommend it!
It's pretty much amazing.
I'm going to give it 2 weeks.
But, I'm a customer of Cutco cutlery for life!

Uhhhh..I've felt sooooo bad lately!
I'm not sure why.
I got my blood tests back on Thursday.
They all were good!
Wow. I'm super duper proud of myself.
Now for this coming week I'm going to start eating healthy.
My goal is to lose about 15 or more pounds by Christmas.
Speaking of Christmas! I'll be spending it in Tennessee with my family!
Yay!
My sister got a new job, and is moving to TN by December!
I'm SOOOOOOO excited!
My birthday is this coming Friday.
Everyone is talking about it, but it's not too exciting for me to be honest.
This coming Sunday, the 28th is our 6 year anniversary.
Whoa! lol.
And on that topic, everyone says a ring will be given..
I beg to differ.
I'll take that bet, with anyone.
$100 says that it WON'T happen.
If it does I'd be like flabbergasted!
I'll be getting a cover up tattoo on the 28th!
Fuck yeah!
That's it, I'm exhausted.
Night All!
I'll update soon!