Thursday, December 10, 2009
It's coooold.
I JUST POSTED THE LONGEST BLOG EVER AND BLOGGER F'ED IT UP. I REFUSE TO WRITE IT AGAIN. BUT KNOW THAT I AM ONE PISSED OFF BIATCH. SCREW YOU BLOGGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Hopeless, but not helpless.
So, Ryan has been sick for the last ummmm...6 days? Considering he is spoiled baby, you can only image how he acts when he is ill. Anyway, on to the point here... I did everything I can to make the man more comfortable: Zicam, Vitamin C, green tea, orange juice, gatorade, tissues WITH lotion, picked up his part of the daily chores, back massages, rubbed his head until he fell asleep, and waited beck & call. Yes! I did all that! I am one kick-ass wifey. ;) hah. I did all of this while still feeling completely helpless. What I've done/did didn't make him any better, or atleast not immediately anyway.
All of this helplessness made me wonder if that is how he feels about me? I mean, let's face the facts here, I am not the healthiest, most strapping 21-year-old around. 14+ years of diabetes has taken it's toll on my body for sure. I am out of control, and I know this. I try to do what I can, but without medical insurance, and a team of physicians on my side, I fail at diabetes. I honestly have not seen an endocrinologist in over 7 years. I should be going to see one once every 3 months. I guess you can say I've missed out on a lot, to say the least. Ugh..back on topic....
So, I wonder if Ryan feels helpless to me? I asked him if he was prepared to watch me die? (I know depressing to most, but if you know me well enough, that shouldn't surprise you in the least.) His answer: "Yes, I watch it everyday." Is this fair? Not to me, to him. I wonder why he stayed so long? That's love right there ladies & gents! That's true love! "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you." --The Notebook.
When we were younger I told him my biggest fear-dieing alone...(I mean physicalling alone, with no one around). He reassured me that he would never let that happen since then, I am ok with dieing. My only problem is that people that I love have to witness it...slowly. I'm not sure which is worse? Feeling it, or watching it? But, I hope you don't feel helpless...none of you. Each one of you give me something to smile about, to prove, to strive for...you make everyday more comfortable.
I'm not giving up til the fat lady sings, and I've still got time to rip her damn vocal cords out! My current plan is to visit with a holistic healer, as soon as possible. I believe I'll get all the help I'll need from that--the natural way. Apparently, man-made, synthetic drugs do not work for me, as we all can see. Don't take me the wrong way, I'm still going to take my insulin & check my blood sugar. That's it. With that and whatever my healer reccommmends I'm well on my way to becoming healthier, for you & for me.
Peace && Love
All of this helplessness made me wonder if that is how he feels about me? I mean, let's face the facts here, I am not the healthiest, most strapping 21-year-old around. 14+ years of diabetes has taken it's toll on my body for sure. I am out of control, and I know this. I try to do what I can, but without medical insurance, and a team of physicians on my side, I fail at diabetes. I honestly have not seen an endocrinologist in over 7 years. I should be going to see one once every 3 months. I guess you can say I've missed out on a lot, to say the least. Ugh..back on topic....
So, I wonder if Ryan feels helpless to me? I asked him if he was prepared to watch me die? (I know depressing to most, but if you know me well enough, that shouldn't surprise you in the least.) His answer: "Yes, I watch it everyday." Is this fair? Not to me, to him. I wonder why he stayed so long? That's love right there ladies & gents! That's true love! "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you." --The Notebook.
When we were younger I told him my biggest fear-dieing alone...(I mean physicalling alone, with no one around). He reassured me that he would never let that happen since then, I am ok with dieing. My only problem is that people that I love have to witness it...slowly. I'm not sure which is worse? Feeling it, or watching it? But, I hope you don't feel helpless...none of you. Each one of you give me something to smile about, to prove, to strive for...you make everyday more comfortable.
I'm not giving up til the fat lady sings, and I've still got time to rip her damn vocal cords out! My current plan is to visit with a holistic healer, as soon as possible. I believe I'll get all the help I'll need from that--the natural way. Apparently, man-made, synthetic drugs do not work for me, as we all can see. Don't take me the wrong way, I'm still going to take my insulin & check my blood sugar. That's it. With that and whatever my healer reccommmends I'm well on my way to becoming healthier, for you & for me.
Peace && Love
Friday, October 16, 2009
Umm. Humm. De. Dummm.
Hm, so it's been a minute since I did this. I don't have much time, and when I do, I'd rather not blog. lol. Anyways, I'm still in pain 24/7, I just choose to ignore it. I miss having down time, and yet my life seems to be perfect at the same time. With all my crazy busy-ness well, I don't have time to think about how bad my feet hurt, or head, or kidneys, or whatever decided to fall apart on me that day. I'm working! OMG! Yes! I said it, I now have a J. O. B. And now I completely understand why my husband hates his life....HAHAHAHA HA jk.
I miss my sister and her family!!! I get to see them for Thanksgiving though.
We got a new house, all to ourselves again! Thank goodness! I can walk around clothes-less again!! ;) It's small, but quiant. I swear, we'll be popping out babies any time now, just because we have no where to put them...that's our kinda luck. lmao.
Ummm..I HATE NKU. I'm transferring in January.
I love and miss Dara Jo Allen more than words can express. :(
I have nothing else to say, but I do have lots of homework, so
PEACE OUT BITCHES!! haha.
I miss my sister and her family!!! I get to see them for Thanksgiving though.
We got a new house, all to ourselves again! Thank goodness! I can walk around clothes-less again!! ;) It's small, but quiant. I swear, we'll be popping out babies any time now, just because we have no where to put them...that's our kinda luck. lmao.
Ummm..I HATE NKU. I'm transferring in January.
I love and miss Dara Jo Allen more than words can express. :(
I have nothing else to say, but I do have lots of homework, so
PEACE OUT BITCHES!! haha.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
UPDATE.
Let's see, why haven't I been on here? I'm really not sure. I've been in such a weird place in my life, and for once I didn't feel like writing about it. I tried just do the whole mental thing, and deal with it. That's got me NO WHERE. And, yet I still don't feel like writing about it, or talking about it. My life isn't bad, and I shouldn't complain as much as I do. So I won't.
Last time I was on here, I had the week from hell. My mom and sister I suppose you could say "made up". But, there is still tons of tension in my family. There's tons of tension in my life right now, and I wish it would just all go away!! My family is my everything, and now I feel like I have to walk on egg shells. My sister doesn't really speak to me any more. She doesn't speak to any of us any more. She was just on a weekend trip up here, and I didn't get to see her. I got to see her kids, which was great! But, not her. Idk what to do about that. It really wears on my heart though.
No job, and I think my husband is very irritated at the fact. I hurt so much anymore. THat's another part of my disoriented mind. OMG, I can't explain the pain. I wouldn't even know where to begin.But, I do have an interview on Monday at Portrait Avenue. If I get this job, I'll keep it, because I have to, no matter what the cost. No matter what I have to deal with. No matter what, I promise myself, because I have responsibilites that are above and beyond my selfishness.
So, Idk what else to write. Because I dont' want to complain any more, and sit here in self pity. So I'm off.
Peace out.
Last time I was on here, I had the week from hell. My mom and sister I suppose you could say "made up". But, there is still tons of tension in my family. There's tons of tension in my life right now, and I wish it would just all go away!! My family is my everything, and now I feel like I have to walk on egg shells. My sister doesn't really speak to me any more. She doesn't speak to any of us any more. She was just on a weekend trip up here, and I didn't get to see her. I got to see her kids, which was great! But, not her. Idk what to do about that. It really wears on my heart though.
No job, and I think my husband is very irritated at the fact. I hurt so much anymore. THat's another part of my disoriented mind. OMG, I can't explain the pain. I wouldn't even know where to begin.But, I do have an interview on Monday at Portrait Avenue. If I get this job, I'll keep it, because I have to, no matter what the cost. No matter what I have to deal with. No matter what, I promise myself, because I have responsibilites that are above and beyond my selfishness.
So, Idk what else to write. Because I dont' want to complain any more, and sit here in self pity. So I'm off.
Peace out.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Gettin' It Off My Chest!!
Let's see, where to begin? Ok, let's start with, this has been a horrible week!
On Sunday my mom and sister got into a huuuuge fight. I hate when my family fights. It's horrible on me. So, basically no one is talking to anyone. Ah! But, I don't want to talk about that.
Well, my job at JCP Portraits is a bust. I'm so upset about it too. I really, really, really thought this was the job for me! But, what they do and what I do, is total opposite. And the worst part is, what I do, sells. I mean I've never had a customer upset with my work. Honestly, it's been the other way around, they rave about it. So, just to give you a hint of what I'm talking about, I did my own thing one day at work. The mom bought a HUGE package of base images...base meaning absoulutely NO enhancements. But, when I showed them to a manager, she wasn't happy. What? I just sold a whole package of them, but what? They aren't good enough. Another bad thing is that no one there has any clue about diabetes. I work usually from 9-3 with no lunch break. Well, let's rephrase that, NO break. at all. So a few times I've gotten a low blood sugar. Of course, that's going to happen because I haven't gotten to eat all day! But, it's always a problem, for them. "we're too busy", or the eyes roll. I can not help it, when I need to eat, I need to eat. End of story! She acts like I'm just lying about it or something. My hands & feet kill from standing all day, and from holding an 11 poound camera. I could go on and give you a million examples of why exactly I call it a a hell hole, but it won't do any good. Either you're on my side, or theirs.
So, this can bring me to my next thing to rant about. I went to a store, which shall remain annonymous. In this store works, a friend? If I should even say that. But, her mom was there too. From the moment we walked in there was NOTHING but attitude. Why? I have no clue. It was from both of them. I felt like my mom and I just walked on to the battle field, and the enemy was launching granades at us left and right. Anyways, she asked about my job, I said it wasn't going very well. Her MOM, of all people, started to talk about how I can't keep a job, and all this bullshit. I told her about them not letting me eat, and she said she's a manager and she feels the exact same way. "you diabetics take advantage of that". HAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is she kidding me? There is nothing more that I want than to be perfectly healthy! I've come to the point in my life where, when I wake up in the morning, I'm so thankful. She has no idea what I go through everyday. How bad it hurts to walk, not to be able to carry a gallon of milk. To have no controle over what your hands do. For your feet to burn so badly when you just get into the shower. No, no, she has no clue, and yet I get this much heat from both of them. I'm lazy? SPOILED?!!!???
There was more that was said, but I will leave it at that, because I just can't bare to think about it anymore! But, because of poeple like them, and like my dear, dear sister, I've decided that I want to open a foundation to teach people aboue diabetes. What it really is, what it does to your body, and how it feels! And no I don't want sympathy. I want people to understand, it's not about "not being able to eat sweets" it's so much more than that. I wish I could show every doubter how it feels. Let them walk a mile in my shoes, or countless others, but if I was given the chance, I don't think I would. I wouldn't want anyone to deal with what I deal with, even for an hour. It sucks. But it's not the worst. That's how I've always felt about it. It could be so much worse. But it burns my ass to hear people say that I'm spoiled, that I take advantage of having diabetes. I wish I could show them how it feels to wake up from being unconscience due to a low blood sugar, to honestly be scared shitless that you're about to take your last breath. That you're not coming back from this one. And to wake up in your own home, in your own bed, with your own husband talking to you, and you NO idea where u are, or what's going on. THAT! is what I've dealt with for years now, 14 to be exact. And I think I handle it very well. I deal with the pain, and all that with a smile on my fuckin' face, because I'm still here. So, back to the foundation. I really am going to start researching for it. I'm thinking I could do scholarships, as well as raise money for a cure, and do seminars about diabetes, and all that kind of stuff. Stupidity has inspired me to say the least!
Now on to Michael Jackson's death. I'm crushed. There isn't anything else I can say about it. I mean CRUSHED.
We found baby Floyd a new home yesterday. As much as me & him didn't get a long, it was super hard to get rid of him. He is in a loving home with my cousin, Tara and her boyfriend Michael, and their boxer, Bella. He & Bella fell in love the moment their eyes met! Bella is full grown boxer, and Floyd at 5 months old is as big as she. I was so happy to find him such a loving home. Ryan and I can't begin to thank Tara and Michael enough for what they've done for us. We were so scared we'd give him to the wrong people and he'd be a fight dog. But, with them, that's not possible. So a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
In other news, we are moving on Sunday! I get to open my own studio space. It's not as cool as it sounds, it will just be a room, with all my photogrpahy equipment. It'll be good for what I want to do though. I just had a girl offer to be my "business parter" but I turned her down for sure. lol. I'm looking to see what I can do, on my own. I want to pursue this newly found talent. Maybe, I'm not even a photographer..maybe I've just been lucky!
Tomorrow I am doing a bride to be's hair & makeup for her 2 engagement parites. You see I wear MANY hats. I do lots of things. But, after that I have Dara's baby shower. And then at 6 I have a cocktail party to go to. Ohhhh fancy, smanshy. lol. Busy, busy days coming ahead!
But, I can't wait to move, and start over. This has been a hell of a week, and I've skipped on some things, but after writing about it I feel a lot better. I'm ready for tomorrow, and for new days, and a better me.
Until next time, peace && love.
On Sunday my mom and sister got into a huuuuge fight. I hate when my family fights. It's horrible on me. So, basically no one is talking to anyone. Ah! But, I don't want to talk about that.
Well, my job at JCP Portraits is a bust. I'm so upset about it too. I really, really, really thought this was the job for me! But, what they do and what I do, is total opposite. And the worst part is, what I do, sells. I mean I've never had a customer upset with my work. Honestly, it's been the other way around, they rave about it. So, just to give you a hint of what I'm talking about, I did my own thing one day at work. The mom bought a HUGE package of base images...base meaning absoulutely NO enhancements. But, when I showed them to a manager, she wasn't happy. What? I just sold a whole package of them, but what? They aren't good enough. Another bad thing is that no one there has any clue about diabetes. I work usually from 9-3 with no lunch break. Well, let's rephrase that, NO break. at all. So a few times I've gotten a low blood sugar. Of course, that's going to happen because I haven't gotten to eat all day! But, it's always a problem, for them. "we're too busy", or the eyes roll. I can not help it, when I need to eat, I need to eat. End of story! She acts like I'm just lying about it or something. My hands & feet kill from standing all day, and from holding an 11 poound camera. I could go on and give you a million examples of why exactly I call it a a hell hole, but it won't do any good. Either you're on my side, or theirs.
So, this can bring me to my next thing to rant about. I went to a store, which shall remain annonymous. In this store works, a friend? If I should even say that. But, her mom was there too. From the moment we walked in there was NOTHING but attitude. Why? I have no clue. It was from both of them. I felt like my mom and I just walked on to the battle field, and the enemy was launching granades at us left and right. Anyways, she asked about my job, I said it wasn't going very well. Her MOM, of all people, started to talk about how I can't keep a job, and all this bullshit. I told her about them not letting me eat, and she said she's a manager and she feels the exact same way. "you diabetics take advantage of that". HAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is she kidding me? There is nothing more that I want than to be perfectly healthy! I've come to the point in my life where, when I wake up in the morning, I'm so thankful. She has no idea what I go through everyday. How bad it hurts to walk, not to be able to carry a gallon of milk. To have no controle over what your hands do. For your feet to burn so badly when you just get into the shower. No, no, she has no clue, and yet I get this much heat from both of them. I'm lazy? SPOILED?!!!???
There was more that was said, but I will leave it at that, because I just can't bare to think about it anymore! But, because of poeple like them, and like my dear, dear sister, I've decided that I want to open a foundation to teach people aboue diabetes. What it really is, what it does to your body, and how it feels! And no I don't want sympathy. I want people to understand, it's not about "not being able to eat sweets" it's so much more than that. I wish I could show every doubter how it feels. Let them walk a mile in my shoes, or countless others, but if I was given the chance, I don't think I would. I wouldn't want anyone to deal with what I deal with, even for an hour. It sucks. But it's not the worst. That's how I've always felt about it. It could be so much worse. But it burns my ass to hear people say that I'm spoiled, that I take advantage of having diabetes. I wish I could show them how it feels to wake up from being unconscience due to a low blood sugar, to honestly be scared shitless that you're about to take your last breath. That you're not coming back from this one. And to wake up in your own home, in your own bed, with your own husband talking to you, and you NO idea where u are, or what's going on. THAT! is what I've dealt with for years now, 14 to be exact. And I think I handle it very well. I deal with the pain, and all that with a smile on my fuckin' face, because I'm still here. So, back to the foundation. I really am going to start researching for it. I'm thinking I could do scholarships, as well as raise money for a cure, and do seminars about diabetes, and all that kind of stuff. Stupidity has inspired me to say the least!
Now on to Michael Jackson's death. I'm crushed. There isn't anything else I can say about it. I mean CRUSHED.
We found baby Floyd a new home yesterday. As much as me & him didn't get a long, it was super hard to get rid of him. He is in a loving home with my cousin, Tara and her boyfriend Michael, and their boxer, Bella. He & Bella fell in love the moment their eyes met! Bella is full grown boxer, and Floyd at 5 months old is as big as she. I was so happy to find him such a loving home. Ryan and I can't begin to thank Tara and Michael enough for what they've done for us. We were so scared we'd give him to the wrong people and he'd be a fight dog. But, with them, that's not possible. So a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
In other news, we are moving on Sunday! I get to open my own studio space. It's not as cool as it sounds, it will just be a room, with all my photogrpahy equipment. It'll be good for what I want to do though. I just had a girl offer to be my "business parter" but I turned her down for sure. lol. I'm looking to see what I can do, on my own. I want to pursue this newly found talent. Maybe, I'm not even a photographer..maybe I've just been lucky!
Tomorrow I am doing a bride to be's hair & makeup for her 2 engagement parites. You see I wear MANY hats. I do lots of things. But, after that I have Dara's baby shower. And then at 6 I have a cocktail party to go to. Ohhhh fancy, smanshy. lol. Busy, busy days coming ahead!
But, I can't wait to move, and start over. This has been a hell of a week, and I've skipped on some things, but after writing about it I feel a lot better. I'm ready for tomorrow, and for new days, and a better me.
Until next time, peace && love.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Let's See..
Today was a pretty good day. My nieces are having a big birthday party on Saturday. They have not had a party with their family in more than 5 years, because they live out of state. So, my mom and I made sure that they were going to have a blast. We let them pick the theme, they picked a western theme--cowboys and cowgirls. We've made them, I should say I, made them little cowgirl outfits. Chaps and a vest. We bought the chaps, but I added fringe to get the full affect. I got blisters on my hands, leather & suede tooling is rough! I made them little vests to match their boots & chaps. Kayla's is orange & black, Hayley's is pink & brown. I'm currently working on putting together some games and decorations. I'm making 3 cakes--2 boots (one each for the birthday girls) and a horse shoe. Plus 50 cupcakes, with cowboy hats on them. Hah, have I got my work cut out for me or what? And the party is Saturday. I know they will, but I really hope they enjoy it. One day when they are older I want them to look back at it and think of me. I always put alot of time and love into their gifts. I'm going to the party as a bandit. You know I can't just be a plain ol' cowgirl. haha. Ryan & Xavier are our sheriffs. haha. It should be a good time. We've got rattle snake toss (a mix between hot potato and musical chairs), a dual area (where the kids can shoot water guns at each other to squash their beef. lol), and we are letting them all pick their "old west name", that should be fun! and a Gold Rush pit where we are putting pennies in sand so the kids can really believe that they are rich. lol. But, yes I am excited, and I hope they are too.
I'm shooting more and more photos now. I just did my first baby portraits. Hah. HHHARRDDD is all I have to say. lol. I can't wait to get my studio up and started, that will make things SO much easier for me.
Until next time,
Peace && Love.
I'm shooting more and more photos now. I just did my first baby portraits. Hah. HHHARRDDD is all I have to say. lol. I can't wait to get my studio up and started, that will make things SO much easier for me.
Until next time,
Peace && Love.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I Think I have ADD
when it comes to life. I'm such a busy body. Well, no long Wilmington. They are offering to pay me a shit ton of money to go there, well take it off of my tuition, but I just really don't want to go there, so I've decided I'm not going to. I'm going to go to NKU online, like before. I've also enrolled in beauty school, Regency Beauty Institute, to do hair. There's so many things I want to do, so I'm going for it.
As much as I'm all over the place, I'm so happy at this point in my life. I feel like I'm chasing all my dreams, and preparing my future life & family. I'm setting me and them up for pure sucess. And I'm having fun while doing it.
I have the most supportive husband. I love him so much. He knows I'm a free spirit and he doesn't ever try to keep me grounded, he's always letting me sore. I love that about him. I don't think there's anyone else in the crazy world, that could handle me. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him. =)
I got a new tattoo today, the inside of my arm done. This sleeve is going to be complete before I know it! Thank God! It's a character of Henry David Thoreau. Absolutely amazing! Love it. He's all done. My Rosie will be finished one day, Dara wasn't in to her today, which is hilarious, because she's always yelling at me saying I can't start anything until all my other work is done, it was all her this time though! lol.
So, I'm doing a million things right now, and loving it. I'm so thankful for my awesome friends and family. That's all, untill next time
Peace && Love
As much as I'm all over the place, I'm so happy at this point in my life. I feel like I'm chasing all my dreams, and preparing my future life & family. I'm setting me and them up for pure sucess. And I'm having fun while doing it.
I have the most supportive husband. I love him so much. He knows I'm a free spirit and he doesn't ever try to keep me grounded, he's always letting me sore. I love that about him. I don't think there's anyone else in the crazy world, that could handle me. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him. =)
I got a new tattoo today, the inside of my arm done. This sleeve is going to be complete before I know it! Thank God! It's a character of Henry David Thoreau. Absolutely amazing! Love it. He's all done. My Rosie will be finished one day, Dara wasn't in to her today, which is hilarious, because she's always yelling at me saying I can't start anything until all my other work is done, it was all her this time though! lol.
So, I'm doing a million things right now, and loving it. I'm so thankful for my awesome friends and family. That's all, untill next time
Peace && Love
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Class Of '09!
I'm officially a college graduate. Woot Woot. Only like 6 more years, and 3 degrees left!!!!! hahahah.
Goodbye Chatfield! Hello Wilmington! I think that's all I have to say...
Peace && Love.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Ready 2 Bounce.
So, has any 1 told you yet? Ryan and I are moving to Tennessee. Not anytime like soon, but within the next year and a half. Preferably, next summer. I will do online school through NKU, that way I won't have to drop out & transfer, or wait until classes are over. So, cool. I'm so ready to leave, like today. But, we have some stuff we need to do, ya know like save mass money, and sell our house. But, yeah, that's our plan. And I haven't said anything about it because we weren't for sure for sure, but now we are. My mom has already said she'd go with us, which I'm so happy about, idk if I could live without my mom! lol!
Graduation is on Saturday. And I still don't feel like it's a big deal. I'd hoped it would be something I would be proud of, but that hasn't hit me yet. I just don't think of it as worthy of anything too special. Blah.
I got my hair cut again. A super inverted bob. I can't wait to get it cut shorter, but to keep those stupid grad hats on I had to have some hair! haha. It's also light again! Like an auburny redish color. Finally after 2-3 years of dark brown-black hair, I'm light again. I'm in love with it. So thanks to my Whitney! She's my new hair dresser =)
Speaking of her, I'm shooting photos of her tomorrow. Trying to build my portfolio. So, let's hope there is no rain! If not we're going to have a girls day. But, I'm pretty stoked about shooting her.
I start back to work on Thursday. Tuesdays & Thursday, 6hr days. But, whatever. I am also working on packing up the house, and painting it all back white again. =/ no fun at all.
Ummm...I think that's all I have for right now. I'm super tired. Until next time,
Peace && Love.
Graduation is on Saturday. And I still don't feel like it's a big deal. I'd hoped it would be something I would be proud of, but that hasn't hit me yet. I just don't think of it as worthy of anything too special. Blah.
I got my hair cut again. A super inverted bob. I can't wait to get it cut shorter, but to keep those stupid grad hats on I had to have some hair! haha. It's also light again! Like an auburny redish color. Finally after 2-3 years of dark brown-black hair, I'm light again. I'm in love with it. So thanks to my Whitney! She's my new hair dresser =)
Speaking of her, I'm shooting photos of her tomorrow. Trying to build my portfolio. So, let's hope there is no rain! If not we're going to have a girls day. But, I'm pretty stoked about shooting her.
I start back to work on Thursday. Tuesdays & Thursday, 6hr days. But, whatever. I am also working on packing up the house, and painting it all back white again. =/ no fun at all.
Ummm...I think that's all I have for right now. I'm super tired. Until next time,
Peace && Love.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
FanFreakinTastic!
Is pretty much how I am feeling right now. I'm sitting here at my parents house, waiting on my husband 2 get here. I had my last Autobiography class today. We each brought a guest, and those around the campus who could come did. So we had a packed house! We had lunch together. It was a pretty amazing spread, I'm still full! We each had to read a portion of our autobiographies as well. So, I got some public speaking practice in today. The new president of the college sat by me, soo wooot for me. Hopefully I impressed him as much as I did the other people! From the career counselor at our school, I got "you're so talented, do you want to be a writer?" I of course said "yes!", she said "good that's what I was going to tell you that you should do." Well duurrr. lmao!! Yeah, so my mom got a lot of "you should be proud" and/or "I bet your a proud mom!" and she was. She was glowing, and I loved it! Did I mentioned I got an A on mine?? Yeah, I was pretty happy, because I really don't think it deserved an A. I wouldn't have given it an A that's for sure.
So, I also took my human bio exam today. 225 questions long!!!! My brain is FRIED. I have another exam tomorrow. And a paper I still need to write. I swear, I'm so ready for this week to be OVER. But, it will come soon enough. Creative writing final is going to be easy peasy, show up, sign my part of the anthology, and eat, and viola--FINISHED!!!
Friday night, I'm being inducted into PTK & Julia Chatfield Honor Society, as I've already mentioned. I bet I'm going to have the most guests : Ryan, My mom, dad, Leesa, Errin, Casey, and Riley. And afterwards we're going out to eat. I can't tell you how amazing it is to have such a supportive family! =)
Yep, we're still movin'. Down south. =) Within the next year & a half. Hopefully! I'm going to attend NKU online for a bachelor's in leadership. Idk, it's called something more flowery, but it's the same thing as communcation arts. Pretty much. I'll still be able to be a PR representative and what not.
I'm in need of models for my photography portfolio. SO!!! If you're interested, please let me know. I'll come 2 you! You'll get some awesome pics, and I'll get a good porfolio together. This summer I'm also putting together a writing portfolio. I'm going to start writing my mom's biography soon too. I'm pretty stoked about that. Not only that I have 2 fix my own autobiography, so lots of work ahead of me. Well worth the effort though!
Ryan & I will be sleeved up pretty soon. Ms.Dara is giving us a good deal, like, we traded our TV. hahahaha. We got a good deal though. We made out better, in my book. But, she's building her portfolio too. So, we're both makin' out 4 the best. But, yeah look forward to more ink, I know I am.
That's all I got for now..oh yeah! Got 2 see my Melinda Fay this weekend, I don't remember alot of it..lol. BUT I'VE MISSED YA! LOVE YA!
Peace && Love.
So, I also took my human bio exam today. 225 questions long!!!! My brain is FRIED. I have another exam tomorrow. And a paper I still need to write. I swear, I'm so ready for this week to be OVER. But, it will come soon enough. Creative writing final is going to be easy peasy, show up, sign my part of the anthology, and eat, and viola--FINISHED!!!
Friday night, I'm being inducted into PTK & Julia Chatfield Honor Society, as I've already mentioned. I bet I'm going to have the most guests : Ryan, My mom, dad, Leesa, Errin, Casey, and Riley. And afterwards we're going out to eat. I can't tell you how amazing it is to have such a supportive family! =)
Yep, we're still movin'. Down south. =) Within the next year & a half. Hopefully! I'm going to attend NKU online for a bachelor's in leadership. Idk, it's called something more flowery, but it's the same thing as communcation arts. Pretty much. I'll still be able to be a PR representative and what not.
I'm in need of models for my photography portfolio. SO!!! If you're interested, please let me know. I'll come 2 you! You'll get some awesome pics, and I'll get a good porfolio together. This summer I'm also putting together a writing portfolio. I'm going to start writing my mom's biography soon too. I'm pretty stoked about that. Not only that I have 2 fix my own autobiography, so lots of work ahead of me. Well worth the effort though!
Ryan & I will be sleeved up pretty soon. Ms.Dara is giving us a good deal, like, we traded our TV. hahahaha. We got a good deal though. We made out better, in my book. But, she's building her portfolio too. So, we're both makin' out 4 the best. But, yeah look forward to more ink, I know I am.
That's all I got for now..oh yeah! Got 2 see my Melinda Fay this weekend, I don't remember alot of it..lol. BUT I'VE MISSED YA! LOVE YA!
Peace && Love.
Friday, April 24, 2009
GRADUATION ESSAY
((for our graduation, us graduates have to write an essay, and then the entire thing will be read out loud by faculty, while we face the audience. So here's mine. I wanna know, does it reflect who I am or what??))
Attending Chatfield has been a wonderful experience. I appreciated the small campus, and intimate atmosphere. I would like to thank the faculty and staff for making my college experience a memorable, enlightening, challenging, and enjoyable one. I would like to give a special thanks to Pam Spencer and Sue Hamann for recognizing a diamond in the rough, and making me into the writer that I am today. I appreciate your love of the English language. Most of all I am grateful for your guidance and support.
I would like to thank my family for all of their support. Thank you to my parents for all of their loving encouragement. I owe my husband, Ryan a tremendous thank you for all of his love and support. I also want to apologize for all the times I was stressed about school, and took it out on you. Thanks for bearing with me, and sticking it out.
Finally I’d like to say thanks to all of my awesome friends! You all know who you are! Some of you are here, and some are not. I have to say though, without you’re friendship, laughter, and craziness, I may not be here today. I love each and every one of you all for such different reasons. I’m not saying goodbye, just thanks for helping me get past this hurdle in my life, and let’s go on to another.
Audrey Hepburn once said, “A quality education has the power to transform societies in a single generation, provide children with the protection they need from the hazards of poverty, labor exploitation and disease, and given them the knowledge, skills, and confidence to reach their full potential.” So, thanks to everyone at Chatfield College for helping prepare me to move on not only in academia, but in life. Peace, I’m out!
Attending Chatfield has been a wonderful experience. I appreciated the small campus, and intimate atmosphere. I would like to thank the faculty and staff for making my college experience a memorable, enlightening, challenging, and enjoyable one. I would like to give a special thanks to Pam Spencer and Sue Hamann for recognizing a diamond in the rough, and making me into the writer that I am today. I appreciate your love of the English language. Most of all I am grateful for your guidance and support.
I would like to thank my family for all of their support. Thank you to my parents for all of their loving encouragement. I owe my husband, Ryan a tremendous thank you for all of his love and support. I also want to apologize for all the times I was stressed about school, and took it out on you. Thanks for bearing with me, and sticking it out.
Finally I’d like to say thanks to all of my awesome friends! You all know who you are! Some of you are here, and some are not. I have to say though, without you’re friendship, laughter, and craziness, I may not be here today. I love each and every one of you all for such different reasons. I’m not saying goodbye, just thanks for helping me get past this hurdle in my life, and let’s go on to another.
Audrey Hepburn once said, “A quality education has the power to transform societies in a single generation, provide children with the protection they need from the hazards of poverty, labor exploitation and disease, and given them the knowledge, skills, and confidence to reach their full potential.” So, thanks to everyone at Chatfield College for helping prepare me to move on not only in academia, but in life. Peace, I’m out!
Relaxing 2day
and it feels so weird. I have a lot of stuff I need to get done, but I'm just like whatever. I'm so worn out, and overwhelmed. So, I'm taking the day to just rest my body & mind.
My mom has been in Missippi for the last week! I've missed her so much! I'm so ready for her to be home on Sunday! I graduate in 2 weeks. Next Friday I'm being inducted in to the Julia Chatfield Honor Society, that's pretty exciting. And then Phi Theta Kappa (PTK) which is an nationally recognized honor society. Which is also amazing! Next Saturday morning is my graduation practice, and then the next Saturday, May 9 I'm graduating!! Actually, it's not that exciting to me. I've waited and waited for it to come for 2 years now, but it's just like, eh, whatever now. I will be going back to Chatfield in the summer to pick up self defense, and zoology, just to get 2 more classes out of the way at Wilmington. And then in August I will be at Wilmington, in my specialized classes pretty much. My major is communication arts. So, already I've gotten scholarship money from them, as well as many opportunities to do what I want, there are so many clubs, and places for me to publish my writing. This summer in between classes and whatnot I'm really going to work hard on my writing. I have to. I'm going to take some writer's workshops I believe, if there are any offered in Cininnati or nearer. I'm also going to check out the local libraries to see if they have any kind of writer's club, or something along that line.
I've applied for a job as a copy writer, basically an editor, or whatever. i should know about that soon. I'm not expecting it. But, I hope so. Also, I've landed a very part time job this summer. My school (Chatfield) has asked me to stay on board in the Registrar/Financial Aid department, so I will, just because it's easy, and I'll already will be there for classes, so I won't be wasting gas or anything like that. hopefully I can land another job too though.
I was actually able to talk Ryan into moving down south, for me to go to school. But, honestly I think I was looking for him to ground me, and say no, we need to stay here, our family is here. But, I'm kinda like..now..just I'll finish school at Wilmington because I'm saving SO much money. But after that, 2 years from now, we are heading to Florida, or Tennessee. So, get as much time with me as u can now! That's all I've got to say. Down south the atmosphere is so much different! Creativeness is embraced. I feel like here I'm stiffled. My way of thinking isn't "accepted". In Ohio you either have to go into social work, or business to make any kind of money. Niether of those things are my passion. So, we've agreed that we need to get out of here. But, I will stay to save money and whatnot.
Ryan and I have decided now is the time to try to have our OWN kids. Our goal is to be a the OBGYN by the end of June, to check up, and see what they think, their honest, professional opinion on if I can carry our children. We're paying for this out of pocket, that's why we are waiting. We're going to save some money up. It will probably be an expensive road. If the chances aren't good, then we won't risk it. Then our plan is to adopt, AFTER i graduate from college, that way I can be a more hands-on-mom. So, I'll keep you updated about all of that. But, I'm pretty excited. I've been told a million times that I wouldn't make a good mom, so I can't wait to prove those people wrong! I just had a professor, last night, tell me that I'd make a very good mother. So HAH! lol.
Ummm..That's all for now. I'm just closing some chapters, and opening others in my life. I'm pretty stoked about my future.
Peace && Love
My mom has been in Missippi for the last week! I've missed her so much! I'm so ready for her to be home on Sunday! I graduate in 2 weeks. Next Friday I'm being inducted in to the Julia Chatfield Honor Society, that's pretty exciting. And then Phi Theta Kappa (PTK) which is an nationally recognized honor society. Which is also amazing! Next Saturday morning is my graduation practice, and then the next Saturday, May 9 I'm graduating!! Actually, it's not that exciting to me. I've waited and waited for it to come for 2 years now, but it's just like, eh, whatever now. I will be going back to Chatfield in the summer to pick up self defense, and zoology, just to get 2 more classes out of the way at Wilmington. And then in August I will be at Wilmington, in my specialized classes pretty much. My major is communication arts. So, already I've gotten scholarship money from them, as well as many opportunities to do what I want, there are so many clubs, and places for me to publish my writing. This summer in between classes and whatnot I'm really going to work hard on my writing. I have to. I'm going to take some writer's workshops I believe, if there are any offered in Cininnati or nearer. I'm also going to check out the local libraries to see if they have any kind of writer's club, or something along that line.
I've applied for a job as a copy writer, basically an editor, or whatever. i should know about that soon. I'm not expecting it. But, I hope so. Also, I've landed a very part time job this summer. My school (Chatfield) has asked me to stay on board in the Registrar/Financial Aid department, so I will, just because it's easy, and I'll already will be there for classes, so I won't be wasting gas or anything like that. hopefully I can land another job too though.
I was actually able to talk Ryan into moving down south, for me to go to school. But, honestly I think I was looking for him to ground me, and say no, we need to stay here, our family is here. But, I'm kinda like..now..just I'll finish school at Wilmington because I'm saving SO much money. But after that, 2 years from now, we are heading to Florida, or Tennessee. So, get as much time with me as u can now! That's all I've got to say. Down south the atmosphere is so much different! Creativeness is embraced. I feel like here I'm stiffled. My way of thinking isn't "accepted". In Ohio you either have to go into social work, or business to make any kind of money. Niether of those things are my passion. So, we've agreed that we need to get out of here. But, I will stay to save money and whatnot.
Ryan and I have decided now is the time to try to have our OWN kids. Our goal is to be a the OBGYN by the end of June, to check up, and see what they think, their honest, professional opinion on if I can carry our children. We're paying for this out of pocket, that's why we are waiting. We're going to save some money up. It will probably be an expensive road. If the chances aren't good, then we won't risk it. Then our plan is to adopt, AFTER i graduate from college, that way I can be a more hands-on-mom. So, I'll keep you updated about all of that. But, I'm pretty excited. I've been told a million times that I wouldn't make a good mom, so I can't wait to prove those people wrong! I just had a professor, last night, tell me that I'd make a very good mother. So HAH! lol.
Ummm..That's all for now. I'm just closing some chapters, and opening others in my life. I'm pretty stoked about my future.
Peace && Love
Saturday, April 18, 2009
This Saturday Is Also Dedicated 2 School.
Honestly, the rest of my life, or atleast the next 2 weeks will b dedicated to school. This is what I have to finish up just before NEXT week, which is only 2 days away...Biology: chap 20, 5 minute presentation, and Progress ?'s, and Lab packet 18. For autobiography: my 45 pg autobiography & read some lame lady's autobiography. Personal Economics: presentation (check! done!), Creative Writing: Final due (check done!), and read some chapter or something. Objectivism: paper. (HARD!) & that's just due next week. I haven't even thought about finals, the tests. So....that's why I've been spending my time on nothing but school work. Yesterday I worked all day, from 9:30-7pm on my Personal Economics presentation, with a 2 hour lunch break with my mom. So wow, I was so exhausted. We went out to eat at B-Dubbs. And went shopping 4 what Ryan was going to wear to my gradution. He's gonna look nice ;)
Today I'm staying here at my mom's all day again too. I get more done here. My dogs aren't here to bother me, and it's so much quieter. And her computer is SO much faster. And honestly, I feel more at home here, than at my own home. We are watching the UFC 97 tonight. Go Chuckie Liddell!! =)
Other than that, I have nothing else to say really, it's been all about school lately, and will only continue that way until gradutaion. Which is May 9th!
So, until next time.
Peace&&Love.
Today I'm staying here at my mom's all day again too. I get more done here. My dogs aren't here to bother me, and it's so much quieter. And her computer is SO much faster. And honestly, I feel more at home here, than at my own home. We are watching the UFC 97 tonight. Go Chuckie Liddell!! =)
Other than that, I have nothing else to say really, it's been all about school lately, and will only continue that way until gradutaion. Which is May 9th!
So, until next time.
Peace&&Love.
Monday, April 13, 2009
My Mondays Are Dedicated 2 School.
Not by choice though, because I'm a horrible student. I'm in a bad relationship, a really bad one. My partner's name is Procrastination. And he always wins. lol!!!! So, I hang out with procrastination all week, and then when Monday comes around, and school starts again tomorrow...I get on the ball, and do nothing but homework. Blahhh. Horrible way to live, but hey, it got me this far. If I could get out of my relationship with Procrastination, I would. But, I've tried, and he has such a hold on me. lol. And yes, I did just turn my flaw, into a fictional storyish kind of thing...how amazing right? It must be because I'm a writer at heart. lol!
Ummmm...update? I've set a tour date on Friday for NKU. Probably will not go to the school, I didn't even like how I was talked to on the phone, just called in, and already they had to ask me my name 10million times. The funny thing is that NKU isn't even that big of a school, not really any ways. My father will be acccompanying me to this one. Oh boy! He has NKU Norse shirts from my sister, I wonder if he will wear one? LMAO. I'm getting ready for the big graduation day. =) It doesn't even seem that important. Like it wasn't hard for me to get where I am, so no need to celebrate it right? Ryan bought dress shoes for my graduation!!!!! Holy crap!!! That's probably why it's so rainy outside!
Ummm...we went to see the new Fast & Furious. It was pretty amazing. It made me want to be tall & skinny, like all those chicks. Lol. But Ryan says I have a lot of growing to do before I reach their height, and I say I have a lot of weight to loose before I reach their number on the scale. Speaking of that...I'm starting on Wednesday to work out. I find that if you pick the middle of the week to start a work out routine, it usually works better. I stick to it more. My goal? I don't have a number in mind...I was musclular at one point...then it turned to fat, so now I have even more muscle to gain. So my number will be big, but I'll be a lean biotch. So as I always say, screw the number! My real goal is to be able to wear shorts this summer...NOT BOYS BALL SHORTS..but girls shorts. And feel super confident in them. =) THAT is my goal!
I did some portrait shots of my mom the other day. I was so excited about them that I uploaded them to myspace without even editing them. As I usually do. Which is my biggest mistake as "photographer". But, whatever. I'm not here to please anyone.
I've been talking to Ms. Makara Barger...Woody's girl. She's pretty cool, but she needs to get away from his dumb ass. Farrrr away. She's gonna come with me to D's shop soon. It would be Friday, but I've got to go to NKU. Sooo...I'm not sure if that will happen. It may though, I really miss my Dara Jo. Speaking of friends that I miss...I miiisss Melinda Fay Johnson. =/ I've sent you quite a few texts, unanswered. What up with that? Hopefully you're phone was dead or something. Otherwise...that really sucks. lol. Anyways, I do miss you! ;)
I'm getting off of here to do some HW.
Peace && Love.
Ummmm...update? I've set a tour date on Friday for NKU. Probably will not go to the school, I didn't even like how I was talked to on the phone, just called in, and already they had to ask me my name 10million times. The funny thing is that NKU isn't even that big of a school, not really any ways. My father will be acccompanying me to this one. Oh boy! He has NKU Norse shirts from my sister, I wonder if he will wear one? LMAO. I'm getting ready for the big graduation day. =) It doesn't even seem that important. Like it wasn't hard for me to get where I am, so no need to celebrate it right? Ryan bought dress shoes for my graduation!!!!! Holy crap!!! That's probably why it's so rainy outside!
Ummm...we went to see the new Fast & Furious. It was pretty amazing. It made me want to be tall & skinny, like all those chicks. Lol. But Ryan says I have a lot of growing to do before I reach their height, and I say I have a lot of weight to loose before I reach their number on the scale. Speaking of that...I'm starting on Wednesday to work out. I find that if you pick the middle of the week to start a work out routine, it usually works better. I stick to it more. My goal? I don't have a number in mind...I was musclular at one point...then it turned to fat, so now I have even more muscle to gain. So my number will be big, but I'll be a lean biotch. So as I always say, screw the number! My real goal is to be able to wear shorts this summer...NOT BOYS BALL SHORTS..but girls shorts. And feel super confident in them. =) THAT is my goal!
I did some portrait shots of my mom the other day. I was so excited about them that I uploaded them to myspace without even editing them. As I usually do. Which is my biggest mistake as "photographer". But, whatever. I'm not here to please anyone.
I've been talking to Ms. Makara Barger...Woody's girl. She's pretty cool, but she needs to get away from his dumb ass. Farrrr away. She's gonna come with me to D's shop soon. It would be Friday, but I've got to go to NKU. Sooo...I'm not sure if that will happen. It may though, I really miss my Dara Jo. Speaking of friends that I miss...I miiisss Melinda Fay Johnson. =/ I've sent you quite a few texts, unanswered. What up with that? Hopefully you're phone was dead or something. Otherwise...that really sucks. lol. Anyways, I do miss you! ;)
I'm getting off of here to do some HW.
Peace && Love.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Call Me Free Bird!
Since I have no more chains. At least for the time being. I'm feeling pretty damn good. I find it super amazing how one decision can make so much of a difference. My head is in a completely different place. I no longer have the world on my shoulders, just my future. Which right now doesn't seem so heavy. Because I know I'm phenomenal!!!! =)
I've realized that I am a dabbler, and I like it. I dabble in writing, blogging, drawing, poetry, song writing, scrap booking, glass staining, blah. blah. blah. I could go on for days. How awesome is that? I do what ever I want. hahah.
Ummm..not much to blog about today, other than my awesome mood, or change of life. =)
I just wanted to say, I'm in love and I'm completely happy. I've risen above the doubt. Nothing is going to stop me now! Watch me spread my wings and soar.
Until next time,
Peace && Love.
I've realized that I am a dabbler, and I like it. I dabble in writing, blogging, drawing, poetry, song writing, scrap booking, glass staining, blah. blah. blah. I could go on for days. How awesome is that? I do what ever I want. hahah.
Ummm..not much to blog about today, other than my awesome mood, or change of life. =)
I just wanted to say, I'm in love and I'm completely happy. I've risen above the doubt. Nothing is going to stop me now! Watch me spread my wings and soar.
Until next time,
Peace && Love.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Storm Is OVER?!
Yeah, I'm having a super excellent day. I'm so happy. I haven't felt this good in a looong while. First things first, I went to my visit at Wilmington. I LOVED IT. I'm not even going to contemplate NKU anymore. I know I could get in there, and I really don't care. I've found where I think I should be. The communication arts department was pretty effin' amazing. Loved it. Campus is still rather small, a lot more walking than Chatfield, but that was to be expected. So! Yeah, I'm in junior in standing there, which was one of the things I was worried about. So all my BS classes are taken care of pretty much..and I'm on my way to my specialized classes. I'm taking my PE class at Chatfield this summer though, just to get that out of the way--self defense! With Mr. John Dvorachek. Hopefully he will teach me something I can use, and there's another plus--I get to shoot big guns!! CHHYEAH!!! =)
Secondly, I got to spend all day with Ryan. He didn't go to work today, he went with me to Wilmington. He didn't want to, I know he didn't, but he did. Which shows me that he really really loves me. He didn't have much to say other than it was my decision, and only I can make it. Which is true, but his silent support was all I needed. When I said yes, this is the place, he said "I knew it. I knew it from the get go." So! That was cool. I've loved having him around all day. We rarely get days to just hang and let loose. It's just what we've needed for a while. I've been asking myself, why in the world is he with me? Like he isn't into anything I am. He doesn't like respond to any of my "projects" "hobbies" or "interests" really. Like my writing or photography or drawing or anything. So I felt today was a good day to ask him about that. He started immediately getting defensive "yes i do" "i love your art" "i always enjoy your stuff" "i love looking at your pictures" So I said you've never read any of my writing. He said, I've read all of your stuff, and looked at all of your pictures, you just don't know it. He said anytime any time I find something on our computer, or on your myspace I jump at the chance to read it, and I like to look at your picutures and your drawings, I'm probably your biggest fan. You just don't know it. Can we say OMG!!!! That made my day. Wilmington aside. To know that my husband, even though he doesn't say it out loud, or praise me constantly about what I do, actually enjoys what I do, and "jumps at the chance to read and/or see it" Wow. I was so happy. It made me feel so loved. For a minute there I was wondering why he wasn't part of that side of me, but I guess I just never took the time to see if he truly was or wasn't. And I def. didn't ask him what he thought about it, or if he was my fan. But, he's always there for me, and I was just feeling a bit insecure. He totally cured me of it though. I love that kid with all my heart. There's no one in the world I'd rather have my heart than him.
Thirdly, When I got home I got a letter in the mail. Wanna know what it said?? That I was accepted into the Phi Theta Kappa honor society. Which is NATIONALLY recognized for those of you who didn't know. So, that also made my day. Another good thing about today, at Wilmington I AUTOMATICALLY get 10k from them, for having such a good GPA. OMG!!!! 10K!! That brings my tuition down to practically what Chatfield's is. So all my hard work, or not hard work, but all my work is finally paying off!! Yay me!
Another thing is that I got to see my Dara Jo today. We came to the shop. She made money, and Ryan got his rat fink worked on. Or should I say, she is making me money, and he is getting worked on as I type. But, he's been wanting to get some work for a while. But, Ryan brought up my new hobby of drawing, and she said...."why don't you learn to tattoo and come work with me here at the shop" and I said...."teach me. teach me to tattoo. apprentice me." At this point, I TOTALLY thought it was a joke. She said "i will! but let me talk to Billy (the owner) first. But, keep drawing!" And I said "I will. can I have some of these tattoo mags?" LOL!!! But, yeah, so that has me pretty stoked too. I'm not sure what else could go on today that will be good. But, I'm not asking or hoping for anything else. It's been more than I can ask for. And I'm finally feelin' like for once in a long time, I'm exactly where I need to be, and exactly on the path to get to where I want to go. Until next time,
Peace && Love
Secondly, I got to spend all day with Ryan. He didn't go to work today, he went with me to Wilmington. He didn't want to, I know he didn't, but he did. Which shows me that he really really loves me. He didn't have much to say other than it was my decision, and only I can make it. Which is true, but his silent support was all I needed. When I said yes, this is the place, he said "I knew it. I knew it from the get go." So! That was cool. I've loved having him around all day. We rarely get days to just hang and let loose. It's just what we've needed for a while. I've been asking myself, why in the world is he with me? Like he isn't into anything I am. He doesn't like respond to any of my "projects" "hobbies" or "interests" really. Like my writing or photography or drawing or anything. So I felt today was a good day to ask him about that. He started immediately getting defensive "yes i do" "i love your art" "i always enjoy your stuff" "i love looking at your pictures" So I said you've never read any of my writing. He said, I've read all of your stuff, and looked at all of your pictures, you just don't know it. He said anytime any time I find something on our computer, or on your myspace I jump at the chance to read it, and I like to look at your picutures and your drawings, I'm probably your biggest fan. You just don't know it. Can we say OMG!!!! That made my day. Wilmington aside. To know that my husband, even though he doesn't say it out loud, or praise me constantly about what I do, actually enjoys what I do, and "jumps at the chance to read and/or see it" Wow. I was so happy. It made me feel so loved. For a minute there I was wondering why he wasn't part of that side of me, but I guess I just never took the time to see if he truly was or wasn't. And I def. didn't ask him what he thought about it, or if he was my fan. But, he's always there for me, and I was just feeling a bit insecure. He totally cured me of it though. I love that kid with all my heart. There's no one in the world I'd rather have my heart than him.
Thirdly, When I got home I got a letter in the mail. Wanna know what it said?? That I was accepted into the Phi Theta Kappa honor society. Which is NATIONALLY recognized for those of you who didn't know. So, that also made my day. Another good thing about today, at Wilmington I AUTOMATICALLY get 10k from them, for having such a good GPA. OMG!!!! 10K!! That brings my tuition down to practically what Chatfield's is. So all my hard work, or not hard work, but all my work is finally paying off!! Yay me!
Another thing is that I got to see my Dara Jo today. We came to the shop. She made money, and Ryan got his rat fink worked on. Or should I say, she is making me money, and he is getting worked on as I type. But, he's been wanting to get some work for a while. But, Ryan brought up my new hobby of drawing, and she said...."why don't you learn to tattoo and come work with me here at the shop" and I said...."teach me. teach me to tattoo. apprentice me." At this point, I TOTALLY thought it was a joke. She said "i will! but let me talk to Billy (the owner) first. But, keep drawing!" And I said "I will. can I have some of these tattoo mags?" LOL!!! But, yeah, so that has me pretty stoked too. I'm not sure what else could go on today that will be good. But, I'm not asking or hoping for anything else. It's been more than I can ask for. And I'm finally feelin' like for once in a long time, I'm exactly where I need to be, and exactly on the path to get to where I want to go. Until next time,
Peace && Love
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Update Anyone?
Well, I don't have much 2 update about. On Friday, I had to start my spring break off right, with a little Captain Morgan. Usually hard liquor makes me angry, very angry. But, I was surprisingly upbeat during my drunkeness. Despite telling a few people exactly how I felt, which would have been done with or without the alcohol. I don't like people to pretend to be nice to me. It's like I know you don't like me, and guess what! I don't like you. So let's ignore each other...seems less fake. =) On Saturday, we went to Newport with Dara Jo and Mickey. We went to Game Works to watch the Big MMA Show, and play some games! We ate at Jax. OMG! Our service suckkked. I had something in my cup, something GROSS, looked much like a booger. Well, I told them about it, and they brought the SAME cup out, with the same booger-like thing. I was piiissed. To top it all off, our bill was a mere $37 and some odd cents, and the doughebag Geordan charged our card for $61. How mad was I? Yeah, very. And I was thinking the other day, I think my life would be much easier if I were ugly. The only time I feel secure is when I'm with Ryan. Because then only the people who are complete idiots are going to hit on me or say something 2 me. So me & D were walking to the bathrooms and these 2 black guys are like "dammmn" and one I think was about to touch my ass, but I wasn't havin' that. But still, that crap happens to me all the time. I refuse to go into gas stations alone most of the time, because I know all those perverted old men sit in there just waiting for some one like me to walk in. I'm not into people talking down to me. Yes, I am an attractive chick, I know this, I own a mirror. But, some dude doesn't have to talk at me like I'm only a piece of ass. A piece of ass he'd never get a chance at, that's for sure. But, yes, if I were uglier...I think I'd be ok. So, I've come to realize that my abrasiveness comes from being looked at like that. Because I'm so much more. Don't compliment me on my body, good genes did that, and/or God, but whatever. Compliment me on my freakin' intelligence, on my style, and my rade personality. I did all of those things. That's all me. If you want me to like you, then I'm telling you now, recognize not only my "beauty" but also my brains. I'll like you for sure.
On another note, I graduate May 9th. I'm in between NKU and Wilmington. So, I've got to narrow it down in the next week and a half. And yes, my major is still the same--Communication Arts. It's the only thing I'm good at. So I have a visit at Wilmington tomorrow. And I'm going to try to schedule 1 with NKU asap. My sister graduated from there. So, we will see. A lot of the professors at Chatfield are trying to talk me into taking my 3rd year there, but I really don't want to. I'm just not...not right for that school.
Ummm...what else? Me & my HUSBAND (still have a hard time saying that. haha) are doing pretty good. I still haven't changed my name. I'm going to do that on Thursday. I owe it to his ass to take his name I guess..I mean out of ALL the women in the world, he picked me to get tied down to. Who in their right mind would do that? I'm so different, well not different, just my own person. So, for him and for my future children, I'll become a Jordan. But, I'm thinkin' seriously about getting a tattoo that reads "Once a Daugherty, ALWAYS a Daugherty" ah hahahhahahha.
Ok, I'm outta here to go write some more of my autobiography, and edit some shots I took yesterday.
Peace && Love.
On another note, I graduate May 9th. I'm in between NKU and Wilmington. So, I've got to narrow it down in the next week and a half. And yes, my major is still the same--Communication Arts. It's the only thing I'm good at. So I have a visit at Wilmington tomorrow. And I'm going to try to schedule 1 with NKU asap. My sister graduated from there. So, we will see. A lot of the professors at Chatfield are trying to talk me into taking my 3rd year there, but I really don't want to. I'm just not...not right for that school.
Ummm...what else? Me & my HUSBAND (still have a hard time saying that. haha) are doing pretty good. I still haven't changed my name. I'm going to do that on Thursday. I owe it to his ass to take his name I guess..I mean out of ALL the women in the world, he picked me to get tied down to. Who in their right mind would do that? I'm so different, well not different, just my own person. So, for him and for my future children, I'll become a Jordan. But, I'm thinkin' seriously about getting a tattoo that reads "Once a Daugherty, ALWAYS a Daugherty" ah hahahhahahha.
Ok, I'm outta here to go write some more of my autobiography, and edit some shots I took yesterday.
Peace && Love.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
FOUL MOOD!
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. That's for sure!!! Plus, to top it off, the new puppy, Floyd totally ruined my glasses today. He chewed them up. Sooooo...now I gotta buy some new ones, and those I just got like last summer. So, needless to say I'm pissed off.
I've been hearing some shit. Yes, I do again talk to my friend Whitney. Yes, we've been through some shit together. Yes, we are two totally different people. But, the thing YOU don't understand is that we've been friends since before we can even remember. Our dad's were friends. So, that means we know each other more than anyone else knows us. And I truly believe that. No one knows me like she does, and no one knows her like I do. Atleast, when it comes to friends. And we've went our seperate ways for a while. And NO I didn't like what she was doing with her life, and that's partly the reason we seperated. BUT!!!! We're getting close again. And I think I misjudged her for real. So, I'm sorry for that. But, I won't apologize for being friends with anyone. Especially not her. I love that chick. We have a bond no one can break, not even us, I mean we've tried. It doesn't work. So, we are totally different, and yet we are a lot the same. So, let me put it out there---she's one of my best friends, and always will be.
I have started drawing. I'm not good yet, but I'm better than some I've seen. So, I'm sticking with it. I enjoy it a lot, a lot more than I thought I would. Mostly I like to draw still life! My mom has hung my 1st real drawing up in her office. haha. Go figure right? It's a vase with a flower, a bowl, and an apple. To be honest my flower is out of proportion with my vase, and my apple is out of proportion with my bowl. But, whatever, I'm just a beginner. Tonight I am going to get new pencils and a new sketch book. Before you know it you will not only see my writing in magazines, and my books, but you'll also have my artwork hanging in your home. Well, only if I like you enough for that. hahah. This spring break I am having 3 photo shoots. One with my friend Whitney, doing some very modern shots. I'm excited for that. One with my mom--we are recreating her as Audrey Hepburn. And immulating some her most famous shots. And of course my rugged Cowboy daddy! I'm excited. I'm going to try to put together a portfolio. There is a photography studio opening in Williamsburg soon, my hope is to get a part time job there. Even if I don't get paid. I just want some exposure. So this portfolio will be shown to this particular photographer just to show her that I am really into this and would love an opportunity, if she'd give it. Wish me luck on that!
I dyed my hair purple last night. I got my first reaction today at Arbys. I guess I'm too pretty to have purple hair? Haha. How funny is that! Ya know because this purple hair changed my face, and my personality and all the stuff that makes you pretty. Hah, it amazes me how petty people are.
Ok, I'm done ranting about all of this, it's just making me even more pissy. I'm off to work on my writer's blog. If you haven't checked it out, do it!
http://maryelizabethswords.blogspot.com
Peace && Love.
I've been hearing some shit. Yes, I do again talk to my friend Whitney. Yes, we've been through some shit together. Yes, we are two totally different people. But, the thing YOU don't understand is that we've been friends since before we can even remember. Our dad's were friends. So, that means we know each other more than anyone else knows us. And I truly believe that. No one knows me like she does, and no one knows her like I do. Atleast, when it comes to friends. And we've went our seperate ways for a while. And NO I didn't like what she was doing with her life, and that's partly the reason we seperated. BUT!!!! We're getting close again. And I think I misjudged her for real. So, I'm sorry for that. But, I won't apologize for being friends with anyone. Especially not her. I love that chick. We have a bond no one can break, not even us, I mean we've tried. It doesn't work. So, we are totally different, and yet we are a lot the same. So, let me put it out there---she's one of my best friends, and always will be.
I have started drawing. I'm not good yet, but I'm better than some I've seen. So, I'm sticking with it. I enjoy it a lot, a lot more than I thought I would. Mostly I like to draw still life! My mom has hung my 1st real drawing up in her office. haha. Go figure right? It's a vase with a flower, a bowl, and an apple. To be honest my flower is out of proportion with my vase, and my apple is out of proportion with my bowl. But, whatever, I'm just a beginner. Tonight I am going to get new pencils and a new sketch book. Before you know it you will not only see my writing in magazines, and my books, but you'll also have my artwork hanging in your home. Well, only if I like you enough for that. hahah. This spring break I am having 3 photo shoots. One with my friend Whitney, doing some very modern shots. I'm excited for that. One with my mom--we are recreating her as Audrey Hepburn. And immulating some her most famous shots. And of course my rugged Cowboy daddy! I'm excited. I'm going to try to put together a portfolio. There is a photography studio opening in Williamsburg soon, my hope is to get a part time job there. Even if I don't get paid. I just want some exposure. So this portfolio will be shown to this particular photographer just to show her that I am really into this and would love an opportunity, if she'd give it. Wish me luck on that!
I dyed my hair purple last night. I got my first reaction today at Arbys. I guess I'm too pretty to have purple hair? Haha. How funny is that! Ya know because this purple hair changed my face, and my personality and all the stuff that makes you pretty. Hah, it amazes me how petty people are.
Ok, I'm done ranting about all of this, it's just making me even more pissy. I'm off to work on my writer's blog. If you haven't checked it out, do it!
http://maryelizabethswords.blogspot.com
Peace && Love.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Kidneys Hurt. Yet Again.
Yep, they do. And this one came on just as fast as the other ones....sucks so bad. They just started hurting today, and I'm already pissing blood. Nice, eh? What is funny 2 me is that the drs. have NO idea why kidney infections come so hard & fast on me. So they just give me stuff to make it stop hurting, which isn't really helping because I know it'll be back in 2-4 weeks. But, it's whatever. We were supposed to go out tonight, and I was freakin' stoked...even bought a cute new outfit..then the kidneys had to take a down fall and so did our plans. But, I'll wait til next weekend, no reason 2 go & get drunk, just to end up in the hospital. I'll wait til my kidneys are on the up-n-up again. But, I must say I'm pretty dissapointed. I'm sure all who were going with us were. So, I'm sorry to them. And they don't know me, or how my kidneys work, so they probably thought I was lieing, but I'm really not. Ask around...my kidneys blow!
I have decided to go to Wilmington College for communication arts. I'm actually really excited about it. I've been thinking about it for a couple months now, I looked at my curriculum...and fell in love. I HAVE to take lots of photography, writing, and webdesign classes. HAVE TO!!! So, that put a big big smile on my face. Speaking of photography, my dad bought me studio lights today. Ya know the big ones with the silver unbrellas. I swear, he is like my biggest fan. He's always pushing for me. I love that about him. I can't wait to start the stories about him for my autobiography. I'm actually getting really excited about it. I'm going to make everyone in my family a copy of it for xmas. I won't tell you the layout, or the stories, but I'm stoookeeddd!!! =)
My husband and I are absolutely wonderful. He's decided to rock a go-tee. I hate facial hair. It absolutely disgusts me. But, I know he'll shave it off eventually...and I can't really say much, I mean he does let me do whatever I want. On Monday I'm dying my hair purple! Woot woot. So. I'm also happy about that.
About the Suicide Girls thing...I've found someone to do my hair & makeup. ANNDD I'm hiring a professional photographer to do my shots to submit. Unless something unexpected deters me, I am going through with this. I'm so happy, let's pray I get it. I mean...my dream...to be a pinup girl! Even if just once in my life. =) You have no idea...
Anyways, I'm off here for now! I love you all! Peace Bitches.
--Mrs. Jordan
I have decided to go to Wilmington College for communication arts. I'm actually really excited about it. I've been thinking about it for a couple months now, I looked at my curriculum...and fell in love. I HAVE to take lots of photography, writing, and webdesign classes. HAVE TO!!! So, that put a big big smile on my face. Speaking of photography, my dad bought me studio lights today. Ya know the big ones with the silver unbrellas. I swear, he is like my biggest fan. He's always pushing for me. I love that about him. I can't wait to start the stories about him for my autobiography. I'm actually getting really excited about it. I'm going to make everyone in my family a copy of it for xmas. I won't tell you the layout, or the stories, but I'm stoookeeddd!!! =)
My husband and I are absolutely wonderful. He's decided to rock a go-tee. I hate facial hair. It absolutely disgusts me. But, I know he'll shave it off eventually...and I can't really say much, I mean he does let me do whatever I want. On Monday I'm dying my hair purple! Woot woot. So. I'm also happy about that.
About the Suicide Girls thing...I've found someone to do my hair & makeup. ANNDD I'm hiring a professional photographer to do my shots to submit. Unless something unexpected deters me, I am going through with this. I'm so happy, let's pray I get it. I mean...my dream...to be a pinup girl! Even if just once in my life. =) You have no idea...
Anyways, I'm off here for now! I love you all! Peace Bitches.
--Mrs. Jordan
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Let Me Introduce Myself...
My name is now, Mary Elizabeth Jordan. Ew..still not used to it, still hate it. haha. Mrs. Jordan. Yeah, it's still not good enough. The big day is OVER. I'm kinda upset. I spent months and months planning, and then in a flash, it was gone. And for some reason I don't remember it that well. It was like a whirlwind. Seriously! I only had one tiny break down during my wedding day, which I thought was good! And it wasn't anything bad, just people wanting a piece of me, and I just wanted to have a minute by myself.
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!
----MRS. JORDAN----
I think it went relatively ok. Ryan's groomsmen, Gary & Woody really dissapointed me. I'm so mad. I'm just like done with them. If I never spoke to them again, it would be ok with me. I couldn't imagine someone would get drunk and try to fuck up your day. But, ne ways, that's over & done with. It went ok and I guess that's all I can ask for. But, still they like have me feeling quite betrayed.
I did however, come away with a husband who I love, respect, adore, and cherish. I'm so so so so happy! I love him more today than I ever did. And making him my husband, has brought us so much closer. It's really like a dream. I never thought that we could get any closer. But, when I go to sleep next to him now, it feels even more special.
I also picked up things with one of my old close friends. We're on our way back to being 2 peas in a pod. And I'm so happy. I've missed her so much. I love love love that chick. Another good thing is that Ryan & Mickey got to know each other a lot better, and really hit it off. I love it when Ryan likes my friend's guys..makes things soooooo much easier! lol.
I got a job at my college today. I'm so stoked. I guess I could say that "good things come to those who wait" but that's total bull shit. Good things come to those who go & get it. So, I marched my ass up and got it. hahaha.
I graduate in May. Woot. I still have no clue what I really want to do. Something creative. I keep picturing my life, and I don't want to be tied down to some desk. I want to be who I am, and not have to be someone else at work. I want to do so many things. I want to be a photographer, a designer, a dj (LOL), a yoga instructor, a writer, a mom, a model...etc. etc. So many things. But, nothing that I want to go to school for. The thing is that I am really good at school, I'm really smart, but it doesn't get my blood pumping. But, when I'm working on something that allows me to let my creative side out, now THAT gets my blood pumping. When I can just let loose and be me, I'm in heaven. Maybe, I just realized why I love Ryan so much. Becuase he let's me be exactly who I am, no questions asked. Man, I really do love that boy!
So! Have you heard of the Suicide Girls? Yeah, it's like Playboy for the "alternative girl"...I'm applying. My goal is to have the paperwork submitted by my birthday. So! Watch out! I may be on the website. I'm stoked. I'm actually going to fulfill my dream of being a modern day pinup girl. HAH! Take that bitches! =)
Well, I better get, got lots of homework to do! I'll update soon! Peace bitches!!!
----MRS. JORDAN----
Friday, February 27, 2009
2 weeekkkksssss!!!!
Yes! 2 weeks to go, until our big day.I am under some major, major stress. I'm completely overwhelmed. But, I think I'm not showing it. Which is good. hah.
Umm..it's been a long while since I've updated...well over a month! But, a friend of mine joined, and gave me her URL, and I was like uhh..I have one of those...I bet people are waiting for an update! Oh yeah and a professor of mine, was just telling me how he was reading my blog the other day. So HI MR. STEVE-O!!!! =)
So. I am the complete NONTRADITIONAL bride. My dress is frickin' amazing. Ivory lace, with a black lace train, and leopard print sash. Oh hell yes! lol. My cake topper is a skeleton couple. My bridal party will be dressed in black--so Johnny Cash. I'm getting excited, but I still know how much I have to do....therefore I'm still stressed out. As you all know I'm the queen of procrastination, therefore I really do have a lot to do. I suppose I did it to myself, so only I to blame. Pics asap! Promise.
In other news, I've added to my sleeve. I've got the top, outside part of my arm done. It's a beaufiful Rosie the Riveter. And I love her. Speaking of tattoos..I was hanging at the shop today, which I do most Fridays...help out, and bull shit mostly. But anyways, I was hit on my a black man with a grill...that creeped me out. THEN!!!! Another guy came in, a cousin of a friend. And I honestly have to say I have never in my life been talked to in such a manner. I mean, I don't think a pornstar has been talked to that way. I was severely uncomfortable. I wished my Ryan was there. I stood up for myself of course, but still...I was just absolutely appalled. Yuckkk. Forget guys like that. It makes me happy to have my Ry. To him I'm not just a piece of ass, I'm so much more. Makes me thankful that I've found someone to appreciate me in my entirty, and not just my face, and or body.
Carter our dog ran away, actually he had to be picked up by someone. Stupid bitches. I'm still heartbroken by it. We've got a new puppy though--Floyd. Ohhhh yay! Training ALL OVER AGAIN. No fun. But he is a cutie patootie. He's an American Bull Dog-Pitbull mix. He's going to out grow Case, and fast. ahahahah. Thus, far they have been wonderful with eachother.
I graduate in May. I just recieved stuff from my college about it. Apparently I have to pay a fee & write an essay to graduate. Like I haven't paid or written enough in the 2 years that I've been there. Ugh. pisses me the hell off. Where am I going next? Wellllllll...Wilmington?!?! Idk. I'm thinking about majoring in Communication Arts. I mean I do Love love love to write & to talk. So what the hell could I ask for? Lol. I'm not sure. If I could I'd get a bach. in liberal arts. But what the hell would I do with a degree like that? Ughh..life. It's so stressful.
This summer I am hoping to do some stuff for myself. Culture myself, if you please. Like painting classes! photography classes! writing workshops! and Piano lessons!! Maybe not all, but atleast one! I'm excited. I also thought about going to school to do hair...just because. Not that I would want to do that as a full time job. But, I think it'd be super fun. Ah who knows.
I'm just livin' one day at a time.
Updates soon...promise.
Peace && Love.
Umm..it's been a long while since I've updated...well over a month! But, a friend of mine joined, and gave me her URL, and I was like uhh..I have one of those...I bet people are waiting for an update! Oh yeah and a professor of mine, was just telling me how he was reading my blog the other day. So HI MR. STEVE-O!!!! =)
So. I am the complete NONTRADITIONAL bride. My dress is frickin' amazing. Ivory lace, with a black lace train, and leopard print sash. Oh hell yes! lol. My cake topper is a skeleton couple. My bridal party will be dressed in black--so Johnny Cash. I'm getting excited, but I still know how much I have to do....therefore I'm still stressed out. As you all know I'm the queen of procrastination, therefore I really do have a lot to do. I suppose I did it to myself, so only I to blame. Pics asap! Promise.
In other news, I've added to my sleeve. I've got the top, outside part of my arm done. It's a beaufiful Rosie the Riveter. And I love her. Speaking of tattoos..I was hanging at the shop today, which I do most Fridays...help out, and bull shit mostly. But anyways, I was hit on my a black man with a grill...that creeped me out. THEN!!!! Another guy came in, a cousin of a friend. And I honestly have to say I have never in my life been talked to in such a manner. I mean, I don't think a pornstar has been talked to that way. I was severely uncomfortable. I wished my Ryan was there. I stood up for myself of course, but still...I was just absolutely appalled. Yuckkk. Forget guys like that. It makes me happy to have my Ry. To him I'm not just a piece of ass, I'm so much more. Makes me thankful that I've found someone to appreciate me in my entirty, and not just my face, and or body.
Carter our dog ran away, actually he had to be picked up by someone. Stupid bitches. I'm still heartbroken by it. We've got a new puppy though--Floyd. Ohhhh yay! Training ALL OVER AGAIN. No fun. But he is a cutie patootie. He's an American Bull Dog-Pitbull mix. He's going to out grow Case, and fast. ahahahah. Thus, far they have been wonderful with eachother.
I graduate in May. I just recieved stuff from my college about it. Apparently I have to pay a fee & write an essay to graduate. Like I haven't paid or written enough in the 2 years that I've been there. Ugh. pisses me the hell off. Where am I going next? Wellllllll...Wilmington?!?! Idk. I'm thinking about majoring in Communication Arts. I mean I do Love love love to write & to talk. So what the hell could I ask for? Lol. I'm not sure. If I could I'd get a bach. in liberal arts. But what the hell would I do with a degree like that? Ughh..life. It's so stressful.
This summer I am hoping to do some stuff for myself. Culture myself, if you please. Like painting classes! photography classes! writing workshops! and Piano lessons!! Maybe not all, but atleast one! I'm excited. I also thought about going to school to do hair...just because. Not that I would want to do that as a full time job. But, I think it'd be super fun. Ah who knows.
I'm just livin' one day at a time.
Updates soon...promise.
Peace && Love.
Friday, January 16, 2009
How Long Has It Been??
Happy New Year everyone! Wow. It's been a couple of minutes since I've jotted some stuff for you guys. Well, I'm into my last semester at Chatfield. These classes I'm taking seem like they're going to really challenge me. All of them. That's the first time that's ever happened to me while attending Chatfield. And I'm glad I did. Now I'll feel like I've EARNED my degree from there. Ah! I'm in autobiography...so I'll be writing my life story! Woo hoo. My mom is happy. haha.
Did you know??! Ryan & I are getting married. Yeah, less than 2 months. March 14, 2009. I asked him. But, if you want to read more on that visit our wedding website. That is already taking up too much of my time, so I refuse to write about it on my personal venting time!
http://www.momentville.com/R-M
What else is new? Hmmm..I've started working out. It's been about 3 weeks ago...I feel so much better. I run 4 miles 5 times a week, I also do strength training 3 times a week, and circut training once. Let's just say I'm at the gym daily. For a good cause though. I haven't lost any numbers on that damn scale yet though, but I do feel better. So I tell the scale to screw off. ahhaha.
My sister & her family have moved to Mississippi. It's only about 6 hours away, instead of 12. Yay! We are taking a quick weekend trip. We're leaving tonight. I'm so excited to see my family.
Other than school and wedding planning, I don't have a lot of extra time.
This is all I have for now.
I'll update soon! PROMISE!!!
Did you know??! Ryan & I are getting married. Yeah, less than 2 months. March 14, 2009. I asked him. But, if you want to read more on that visit our wedding website. That is already taking up too much of my time, so I refuse to write about it on my personal venting time!
http://www.momentville.com/R-M
What else is new? Hmmm..I've started working out. It's been about 3 weeks ago...I feel so much better. I run 4 miles 5 times a week, I also do strength training 3 times a week, and circut training once. Let's just say I'm at the gym daily. For a good cause though. I haven't lost any numbers on that damn scale yet though, but I do feel better. So I tell the scale to screw off. ahhaha.
My sister & her family have moved to Mississippi. It's only about 6 hours away, instead of 12. Yay! We are taking a quick weekend trip. We're leaving tonight. I'm so excited to see my family.
Other than school and wedding planning, I don't have a lot of extra time.
This is all I have for now.
I'll update soon! PROMISE!!!
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