So, have you ever questioned parenting? Who who gets to be parents and who does not? How does that decision get determined? WHO determines that??? I know this is going to sound SO selfish, but in reality I'm not even talking about ME in particular. I know MANY, MANY awesome people who are or would be fantastic parents. They are TTC, and some have miscarried time and time again, it's a painful process. It takes a mental head trip on you. But, then to see people who can blame their twins on a "tumor", drink alcohol their entire pregnancy, keep it from the dad, and say she was giving them up for adoption. DO NOT PLAN OR CARE FOR THESE BABIES!!!! Then, have one, decide to keep them, and call the father 4 days later so he can see them. UGH. Why in the HELL do people like that get pregnant?! WHY?!? I don't understand it. A friend recently had her 2nd miscarriage. Idk what to say to people when that happens. I could imagine it would be very hard. =( I've been off of birth control for 26 months now. No babies. No anything. That's hard enough. I can't imagine conceiving and losing. For everyone who is TTC, miscarried, or has been through the grueling process of TTC for any amount of time--I'm sorry. I feel for you. My heart aches for you. I wish you the best. I hate that the wrong people get to experience something that they will probably never cherish. At the same time, I hope it changes those people, for the better. I'll remain optimistic about the entire thing. But, it still baffles me to the extreme.
Next point: day 2 of switching Levemir to a daytime dose. I took my full dose of 15 at 9:30 this a.m. I feel wonderful! I hope it continues this way! I've been working very hard at this. I hope to reap every reward I can from it. I've been in denial for so long. I'm not any more. I am diabetic, and I know I need to take care of myself. Next week I add exercise to my life turn around. One step at a time!
Until Next Time!
5 comments:
i was wondering how the Levemir was treating you since you made the switch. glad to hear that you feel good!!
vent away, honey. it's not fair. not one little bit.
Jo, I've been on Levemir for a while now. But switching to daytime was all my idea. So far it's better. Today was a good day. I feel good! No complaints! That's a start!
I feel bad to vent, but at the same time, I'm just so enraged by the whole thing!
I hate her. I've said this so many times in the last 24 hours. I thought about the same thing today while Drake was napping, and I cried for the babies that are placed with people who aren't at all capable or appreciative for the wonderful thing they've been given, and I bawled for the wonderful people who aren't able to get such a blessing. So. I hate her, and not just her, but all the "parents" in the world that really just fucking suck.
I love you though. I'm glad the switch has worked out much better thus far, and hope that it continues to get even better. I like hearing that you've had good days. I LOVE hearing it actually.
Thanks.
I did have a good day.
I feel better having venting about the Oger too!!! lol.
He is just so stupid not to see what she did. CAN HE REALLY BE THAT STUPID?!
I cried too. I cried for me. I cried for Ryan. I cried for everyone I know who is TTC. I cried for those twins. Ugh. This process sucks. I'll go back to not wanting kids now...
Vent away, dear!!
I know what you mean, though. My husband and I weren't trying to have our daughter but we gladly welcomed her because we new it was a 'risk' (haha) of being married.
My little brother on the other hand... had to go and get his girlfriend pregnant. They were not equipped, mentally ready, she had just lost her job and he didn't have one. I was so mad at them, thinking they could 'do it' without consequences. ...we'll see how it all turns out. I'm excited for a nephew but... I just hope they can give him a good life.
Glad the Levemir is working out for you!
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