So just incase you have missed me, I'm going to update you on my incredibly different life I live now, compared to the last time we met here! So much has happened in such a small amount of time, I'm not even sure where to begin! So expect this to be random, as usual, but even more so.
A). My husband had a near-fatal motorcycle accident on July 28th. It was probably the hardest 16 days of my life. Everyday I would pray I'd go into his room and he would just magically be back him old self. If not the same, at least a little better than the day before. That was usually not the case. We always took 1 step forward and 23 steps backward, for 16 days straight. Well, I'm still not sure of details, not that he can't tell me, I just prefer it that way. It makes it easier for me. He didn't have his bike long, literally took it out of the back of the truck and went for a ride, and never came back on it. Instead, he went by ambulance then air care to UC's trauma center. We are very thankful for his best friend, Devin, who saved his life. He ruptured his aorta. Yes, I said it, his aorta, the largest artery in your whole body. Devin made him lay down, which saved his life. 90% of people that rupture their aorta die within 2 minutes tops. Can we say miracle? Yes, I think it's safe to say that. Other injuries include two broken vertebrae, 8 broken ribs (on one side), crack sternum, broken teeth, broken nose, a gnarly leg with missing muscle and tissue now, and I believe that to be it. Well, I received the call at 9:33pm, and I didn't know at all how he was, or if he was even stable or living until 3:30am, the following day. That was beyond rough in itself, little did I know, it was going to get worse before better. He had surgery on his heart, early the next morning. It was supposed to take 2 hours, and ended up taking 5. Long story short, it was rough for him in the beginning but he's incredibly strong, and he's doing well now. He's made a full recovery. He's more rough looking with his teeth and broken nose, but he's still my teddy bear! We're 3 months out, and he's back to being his hard working self. He has issues with his left arm where his heart stint blocks blood flow. We're hoping that corrects itself, otherwise another surgery is the only way to fix it. He's also having his nose fixed with in the next couple of months. Again, he's the strongest man I know. I never knew how much I loved that man until that day. And everyday since then, I've fallen harder and harder.
B). Well, when my world crashed around me on July 28th, why not add more to it right? Well, August 6th I found out that I was pregnant. I don't have normal cycles, I took a test to make for sure for sure. I was for sure wrong. We're definatley pregnant! As of today, we are 18 weeks along. It's been the hardest 18 weeks of my life. I've literally stopped living. My bloodsugars are so out of control I have to have someone with me at all times. I've passed out to where I had to use an emergency glucagon shot 9 times thus far. I'm always low. I am the exact opposite of any other pregnant diabetic that my "high risk OB's" have seen. They say I should need more and more insulin, and I have to take less and less. I currently take the exact amount of long acting insulin as I did pre-pregnancy, and usually only 1-2 shots of fast acting insulin in a 24 hr period. I used to take one everytime I ate anything. So, on average about 8-10 shots? So, MY life has stopped completely. I'm no longer in school, due to my crazy diet of eating every 2 hours, plus all my low bloodsugars, and me having a dr appt 1-2 times EVERY week, my school said they couldn't work around those things. I had to "drop out". I can re-enroll after baby, and keep all the hours I've put in though! Everyone treats me like a baby, I'm not allowed to do this or that. They force feed me too. lol. We weren't supposed to be able to have children. This is one strong, miraculous baby! We are beyond happy about it!
C). I have no clue what I want to do with my life now. I want to go back to hair school, but I don't want to have no money and a child. Before it was easy. I would have no pressure, I could take as long as needed to get to the top and make money. I feel it would be unfair for Ryan to have to support two people, while I try to make it work. With today's economy hair stylists, don't make as much money. Yes, they still do well, it's just way harder to get there. So, my new plan is to go and get my phlebotomy certificate. It will take little to no time because I already have an Associate's degree. And then I can work part time, and either go back to hair school, or get my bachelor's degree in radiology technology. Either way, I have a plan, I'm just not sure whether to go for passion, or money. With someone depending on my, money is probably better. Hair can be a hobby! lol. But I'm not too sure, still debating. I'll see how it works out later on.
That's all I have for now. I'll be back SOON!
Love,
MJ
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