I do know me!

I do! I actually DO know me. I know my body. I know myself. That's been a hard thing to realize lately! For the past 28 weeks I've had teams of people telling me the exact opposite. "You don't know your body." "Pregnancy complicates things so much, you'll lose your self." I listened to them all. I let them get in my head. But, I'm back on track. I found me again.
I was supposed to be doing very little activity. "functional bed rest". I did that for a while, nothing was working with the blood sugars. It was up down, sideways, and in between. I even wore the CGM (continuous glucose monitor), that checked my blood sugar 252 times in a 24 hour period. They found NO patterns. I did their diet. I did what they asked. Still I lived in chaos. Finally, I said to myself, I'm going to do what I think I need to do. I took their structure and modified it to fit me. I researched nutrition. I'm doing things they don't approve of, but they seem to be working well.
It's been almost 2 weeks of solid "good" blood sugars. Yes, I've still had some lows, but even those in the past 3 days are scarce. I even added in some light exercise. I feel wonderful. I'm so glad I did this. I'm bummed that I let these doctors tell me I didn't know my body. Of course I do, I have to. Being a diabetic, all you can do is listen and know your body, in order to keep going. Needless to say, tonight I'm happy that MJ is back. I know me, it shows. My numbers are good. My mentality is solid. My body is "getting there". I have 11 more weeks to keep this child in, to make sure he's safe. I'm going to do it. I should of done this a long time ago, but better late than never they say.
I'm even to the point where it doesn't make me cringe at the thought of trying for another one. I know in my heart I've changed my life around. By that I mean, even after delivery of my healthy son, I'll continue to live a healthy lifestyle. I'll listen to my doctors, and I'll show them that they should listen to me as well. I'm not saying any time soon, or ever for that matter will there be a 2nd Jordan spawn, but I will say that the thought of it DOES NOT scare me anymore.
I better get off here and hit the hay, I've got to be up at 6:30A.M. tomorrow for a date with some cardio. ;)
Until next time loves!