I guess I do have a lot to write about, and at the same time, I really don't. I write about the same stuff, every time. I'm sure you're just as bored reading it, as I am writing it. But, writing all this helps me cope and deal with completely changing my life. It keeps me going. When I put it in writing (or typing) it finally sinks in that I AM doing the right things.
So, anyway, the "let's be a healthy diabetic" mission, is still on going. I'm still doing everything I'm supposed to. Yesterday, my sugars were spot on ALL day. Not one high, and just one low. Other than the low, I was banging out awesome numbers. I'm elated. FINALLY, after all this hard work, I have proof that I can do this. Then today came around, and I woke up high? And have had low lows ever since. hah. My victory was short lived, but it has put me in an even better mind set. It's feasible to have "normal" blood sugars. I'm just going to continue to do what I'm doing. It will work itself out, as long as I continue to try my hardest.
Ryan went to see Dr. Meier yesterday. His cardiologist that placed his Aortic graft. Good news, the heart, the graft is all A-ok. Bionic man doesn't have anything to worry about there. Bad news: the blood flow to the left arm, is getting worse. Even worser news, no surgery. He can't have surgery because he doesn't have insurance. He's an idioso, and dropped it a few months prior to his accident. Good job, Ryan! ;) Any way, the hospital says they won't allow it because he already has an outstanding bill. We'd have to come up with half of the 50k that it's going to take to do the surgery, as a deposit. This surgery wouldn't be necessary if his team of drs had done the bi-pass the LAST time. Instead they went in through the arm and placed stints in his shoulder. The words that I hated to hear most was Dr. Meier saying, "well, I figured they wouldn't work. But, I had to at least try. That way never works though. If we get to do this bi-pass through the neck, it WILL work." Ryan was just as irritated, his response, "well, yeah sure why not try it. It was only a $45 thousand dollar trial and error." Dr. Meier laughed, I know, but we have to see what works and what doesn't. Well, if you have a plan that works, why not save everyone time and money and use THAT way? Our only two options are to plead with the UC financial board that this surgery is needed and should be considered "post trauma". If they refuse to help us, then we're going to have to be sneaky. I'm not allowed to talk about how we'd do this, Dr. Meier assured us this surgery will be taking place. With or without the help of UC. I mean, he's not going to do it in his basement, or anything absurd like that! Just we'll have to pull some trickery to get him in the hospital's doors. Once in, he can proceed with the surgery. My husband WILL have this surgery. His arm is constantly cold. Like 60 degrees, 80 on a good day! His arm is always, always tired. When taking a shower, he has to take breaks, because it wears it out so fast just showering that he can barely move it. This affects his way of life. I can't imagine how he gets through a day of work. I mean, he's a diesel mechanic! All he does is use his hands and arms, and on ginormous trucks and parts. Plus, I want him to be able to do normal things with his son. Hold him, feed him, play with him. So, one way or another this surgery WILL happen. I don't even feel bad if we have to lie to get him into the hospital to get the surgery. They did this, they should fix it. I think it's appalling that they wouldn't even care. And they don't. Obviously. I have an amazingly strong husband. I'm thankful for that.
That's all the bull crap I have to share.
Until Next Time...
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