I am currently living a lifestyle of what I like to call, S3 (S to the 3rd power). I'm not going to tell you it's been an easy transition, that would be a blue-faced lie. It's been the most challenging thing I've ever done. I can say that it's taken me a month since working with a my new health care team to get to where I am. I still have days where I want to pull my hair out rather than eat at a certain time, or cry because I cannot have Olive Garden (or the good stuff, as I like to call it), but it's becoming more and more effortless to just make the right choices. My schedule is strict, which doesn't allow for me to go out and about for too long, and definitely not for food (which is my favorite thing to do when "going out"). Luckily for me, fast food isn't something I'm interested in, or even care much for, so that has not been a big challenge. I like to go to nice, sit down restaurants, with scrumptious food! If there's one thing I'll throw down the mulah for, it's good food! hahaha. One day I'll be able to go out to eat more often, definitely not like we used to, but that'll just make it that much more special!
My alarm clock sounds a minimum of 7 times a day. I set it more if I'm going to nap, in attempt to keep my self alive, and beat the lows. It screams at me starting at 7:00 A.M., 10:00, 12:30 P.M., 4:00, 7:00, 10:00, and then lastly ending my night, or starting my next day depending on how you view it, at 3:00 A.M. I check my blood sugar a minimum of 10 times a day. I take a minimum of 4 shots a day. All food I ingest is measured out, counted, weighed etc.
As far as the food goes, the more I do the measuring the better I'm getting at just eye-balling it. I "eye-ball" it, then measure it to make double sure. Anal, I know, but this is my son's life on the line! I can't be too careful! The fact that I'm getting better, gives me high hopes that one day when I go into a restaurant and order, I'll be able to just look at my entree and have a good solid idea of how many carbs are in it, and how much insulin to take. I used to just draw up and shoot up, leaving me super high, or super low! So, there's another way I'll be a better diabetic after this experience.
I think this strict schedule and diet will help me lose all the weight after having Max too. Believe me, an extra 36lbs on me doesn't look good! lol. I'll eat the same, 6 meals a day, but definitely smaller portions for lunch and dinner. I hear everyone telling me "it's going to be so hard for you to lose the weight because of your diabetes and blood sugars" etc. In my head, I think hah, that's what YOU think. I've never been your typical over-weight diabetic. And I'm on a mission to get and stay healthy for my son! And to keep my husband's eyes on me. To stay a hot wife is the way to go! hahaha.
It's a great feeling know that my future is looking brighter everyday that I get used to my S3 lifestyle! I'm proud to say that I'm glad I went through all the ups and downs that I've had, and will continue to have during this pregnancy. It has made me see the light that I am now seeing-- a healthy life as a diabetic. Tomorrow will be better than today, and for that I'm thankful. I'm doing this for myself, for my son, my husband, my mom, and the rest of my family and friends. Mostly for myself and Max. I want to be there for my child, and see everything he will ever accomplish in his life. I know I put a big burden my family and friends. I'm trying to help alleviate that pain from them. It's taken me a long time, but people say better late than never right?
I think schedules, structure, and stability is just what I need. Free spirit or not, with these 3 things, I will be able to spread my wings and soar. I'll leave you with a quote that struck my whole being...
“Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be. This is the interrelated structure of reality.”
-Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
Until Next Time...
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